My Experience Through Mediumship Development

   I am sure many of you wonder how is possible that some people are able to talk, sense or hear the dead. Even more, how can they possible be able to pass messages so meaningful to the ones still living with no rational or logical explanation of how they got it.

Like you, I have these questions as well have many doubts and skepticism about it. However, my journey through Cartomancy somehow led me to see all this talking to spirits, as a limitless pool of possibilities. 

The first time I saw a spirit was when I was about 9 years old. I saw it just like a real person, can hear her breathing and how she put weight on the bed as she sat down to observed me. There is more details of this story that I am not going to discuss here—however that was the beginning of my journey through the spirit world.

Through the years, I had so many encounters as well stories that up to this day baffled me in many ways. While reading the cards, in few occasions I can hear them as well see them. My dilemma with spirits is that once I get to see them, I can’t pass the “aha’' moment and excitement. I just can’t  calm myself and ask these spirits “Who are you? Why you are here? What message you have and for whom?”

This led me to seek help among many of my mediums friends. I got ideas from them, of how they connect but never found it practical. I always looked for some classes and books that can help me. Finally, after all these years—I was lead to a class of Mediumship development near by the town from where I live at. I signed for it and up I went.

I didn’t have any expectations and went with open mind. Hoping that I can finally control the fear and anxiety to it and believe me—I succeed.

There was 17 of us taking this class, only two brave man, the rest were women. I saw clearly all path of life among them as well their open mind and wonder about develop themselves through this type of classes. There was no gypsy like or hippies—there were just regular people. The teacher was indeed an energetic woman, with the skill to teach but more over with the kindness to handle all our emotions through this class. The first thing this teacher did was thrown us into the mediumship with no parachute. Luckily, we all survived the first round—it was indeed a warm up for what came next through the hours.

Its hard to explain how I felt spirit on that day, but what the class gave me was the confidence to trust the unseen and just spit out what comes to mind.  Seems to me through all the readings I got that day, that my father’s family showed up. From my grandfather, grandmother, my father’s baby sister that died many years ago. However, only one Army soldier showed up for me—to asked for forgiveness from me. The readings I gave to others really blown my mind, here I am thinking that I just spoke my imagination and the one hearing it—wonders how I got such details with such accuracy.

In one of the readings I gave, I was blindfold as part of the exercise—in which we don’t see the person for whom we reading for. I have to rely first on my empathic skills and later on, I have to trust the visions I saw. This woman was very grateful for the reading I gave her as no other medium was ever able to contact her dead mother as I did. It was indeed mind blowing!

The last exercise was about to be stage medium—gosh you talking about being under real pressure with this one!

I gave two readings, to two different women. To one woman the reading didn’t do any sense but to the other it did. I remember that when I looked the room around seeking for whom to read, this lady got my attention. I asked in my mind what can I possibly say to this woman? Right on that moment, I saw the vision of this old lady, touching her heart and as she did, I felt a metal object on my heart ticking like a clock. I heard clearly this woman with lots of excitement to tell this lady that “Don’t worry dear, still ticking, everything will be alright.”

I felt apprehended about saying this to this woman across the class room, but I said it. Her face of wonder made me felt like I most imagined the vision, that I might be wrong as she didn’t gave me confirmation if any I said made sense to her. The class was over, we all were exchanging business cards and contacts—when the lady I gave the message about “still ticking” came to me. What she said really made me felt, that there is life after dead after all—that I didn’t imagine such.

She said to me, that both of her grandmothers were recipients of pacemakers later on their lives before passing. She also stated that recently, she got a pacemakers itself and she fears that it might not working properly—for which she constantly ask her doctor and spirits if she will be alright. She stated that when I said those words “Don’t worry dear, still ticking, everything will be alright” was indeed a confirmation for her and her question, giving her peace within.

I must say this class to me, was just the beginning of a new adventure. Two days after that class, I woke up by a pass by spirit named Joe. He just showed up and said hello and that his name was Joe. I asked what you want, he just said—nothing, I just stop to say hello. Right after, I felt his energy leaving my bedroom—I see now that the door of spirit world is wide open. It’s up to me to explore and that is what I will do.

Love and Light Everyone!

Liz Figueroa

Evolution of a Tarot Reader

       When first comes to mind the vision of a Tarot reader, we usually associated it with Gypsies or perhaps an old woman with her head wrapped around with a scarf. Or better yet, we associated it with someone telling you an extraordinary tales for an amount of money. However, Tarot readers have come a long way from what people think they might be.

    Cartomancy or as it is known to be the ability to fortune-telling by interpreting a random selection of playing cards, is not longer attributed to Gypsies—this knowledge now is use by people from all path of life. If you asked a reader now days, what they used to do before they started reading cards for the public—you might be surprise of the amount of highly educating people alone with their religious background.

    In my case, I grew up through 3 religions or beliefs: Roman Catholic, Santeria and Spiritism—and to top it off, I spent 20 years in the US Army and 7 years as a police officer, with a college background of Nursing and Criminal Justice. For me, it all started as a curiosity of trying to figure out how the cards relates to other’s lives in such details, despite they are drawn randomly.

  How can it be possible that a deck of cards with peculiar designs can tell so much about a person’s ongoing situation as well shows a lot about their personality—like looking into a mirror?.
   
    Lots of people asked me, how can you see my life’s situation through the cards? I always tell them that Tarot is just a tool that helps taps on one’s intuition—in my case I used them as flash cards that trigger memories of my own life, which in turns, I reflected them on others, as a mirror. I noticed with years of practice that the cards no matter in what order of draw—change meaning depending from what angle you observed them. I can draw the same cards for different people and believe me; they all will come out with a different meaning related only to them.

    In my search to find out the mechanics of it, I could tell you something for certain—we all are energy and we all connected by life’s experiences, no matter what is your background, ethnicity, beliefs, geography or economical status. We are all energy beings, while living and collecting human experiences.

   Is Tarot like Magic? Witchcraft? Or more sinister from what it looks? I believe the answer is so simple that even in its simplicity, is hard to wraps as a fact.

    When I first started with the Tarot, I found it so complicated, time consuming studies, even thought it was a bunch of meaningless cards. However, my negative approach never stopped me from keep trying to understand it. One day, I just decided to toss away the Tarot books and see the card for what they are—a picture that can tell a thousand words. I use that concept, while using my perception of it as a mirror, when reading for others. The outcome of it was indeed beyond my rational understanding—I learned to embrace it for what it is—not for what others wanted it to be. I just love to help people see themselves and their situations from another angle, in this case Tarot cards and intuition. While searching their own answers, finding their own solutions and remind them to be aware that everything change once they acknowledge it, ALL because their amazing God given gift of Free Will.

   Since 2004, my evolution as Tarot reader have gone from reading at online Forums, Chat rooms, Emails, Phone calls to friends, even while radio hosting—then in the past 2 years, I moved on to perform in public through local fairs and Spiritualist Churches while in the Mid-West of USA. Now, I have been invited to bigger state events with 1,000+ people attendance. Since I publically embrace the Tarot for what it is—the door of opportunities to share my passion for Cartomancy have opened beyond my understanding. I see these opportunities as my way to help people to enhance their soul through positive reinforcement, while it helps my soul to evolve as well.

   Evolution will continue, no matter the detours, the challenges and the impossible… Evolution will never stop changing what we know—everything and everyone will continue evolving, while changing it into something more adaptable to its environment...

Love and Light for all of you..

Liz Figueroa

Sky Snowy Owl

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DOs and DON’Ts: When Seeking a Tarot or Psychic/Medium Readings

      In our lives, we all seek for answers of some sort, specially when in moments of despairs and no matter what religious background we might have, we seek those answers in the newspapers' Horoscope, as well in the Tarot or visiting the local Psychic Mediums. However, in those moments of despair if we don’t know how to look for the answer or shop before buy, we can easily become lost in our path or worst, we can become a victim of a scam.

   There is scam artist every where, from sales pitch to dubious online offers,  and having them among Tarot readers or Psychic Mediums is not surprising.

Don’t get me wrong, there is plenty of people that are GENUINE in the field of divination, as well the real thing when it comes to psychic medium insights. However, I am attempting with this blog to show you the DOs and DON’Ts when seeking for answers from those sources, so you don’t become a victim of a scam and in the process you learn to have your money worth expend. 

DO shop around of who is best on what they do, by checking credentials.  When looking for Tarot or Psychic Mediums, word of mouth is not good enough. I said this, based in the fact of what it was good for your friend that just got a reading, it might not be good for you, because what makes a difference it’s a matter of perception and knowledge when it comes to readings of this sort.  Ask questions, like how long have you being doing this and how long you have being in business. Remember, just because they are good at something, doesn’t mean they are experts or professionals. I have seem people in the past, that just discovered that they can give psychic/medium insights and out of the blues they jumped into business adventures, without taking the time to understand the gift within themselves. As soon as they get into business, as soon as they fall out of grace when they find out, that dealing with people’s emotions and their own, was not as easy as they thought it would be. When looking online for this type of business, be aware of their self written Biography about their skills or sales pitch, anyone can do that, therefore I highly advice to look for demonstrations if you can or if they are available, since most online readers has done radio, podcasts or TV demonstrations.

DO look for body language, are these people giving you the sense that they really want to help you? or they just want your money? You can spot a business person no matter in what business they are in, the same goes in the divinatory fields. Look for their place of business, what vibes you get from it? does is welcoming or scary? There is a lot to say by first impressions, if you don’t feel comfortable with the personality of the reader, don’t waste your money, because what ever that person has to say, it won’t get the message to you. Remember, the reader is a human being and they have families and worries as you do. If they look agitated or going through personal crisis themselves, change your appointment for another day if they don’t do it first or better yet, look for another one.

DON’T get mesmerize by labels or tittles!  Anyone can label themselves as the best in the field, the same goes with paying someone to give them some courses with the handling of a certification. However, whether they are good on what they do, its what makes a difference. Remember this, a Medium can be a psychic but a psychic can’t be a medium. The same goes with healers that insist to be psychic mediums and suck at it, I am sure you have your share of it.

DON’T feed them with all kind of information about you. If you do, what was the purpose for you to seek their insights to begin with? When you give more information from what they asked for, if they are professional they will stop you or ignore it while teaching you to not do that. However when the reader is a scam artist, they will fish the info based of what you said to them and rephrased it to give you what you want to hear based on your emotional state. Being so emotional, you might think that they are the best in the field but they are not. The best you can do, is make a simple question and while on the reading, just answer with yes, no or sorry that doesn’t apply to me. Don’t answer more from what they asked you, remember, you are paying for information, why feed them with what they don’t know until tell them? Besides you are going for a reading, not for a court hearing in which you are expect to say everything you know, let them tell you instead.

DON’T fall for the “Candle Scam”. What is this and where you can find this type of scams. First of all, be aware that these scam artists, are really good in giving you great information, they know their skill and some of them are so accurate is scary, but despite all that, they still con artists. These are the type that you can find in tourists places, they start with amazing insights (the hook), they are watching your emotional state while doing it and to finish the reading, they sell you a candle for $10-20 dollars, the same candle you can find at the grocery store for $1.50 plus tax. They tell you, to light that candle for certain amount of days and return back to them to see if the problem is resolved. Obviously the problem will still be there and then they will tell you that you didn’t pray hard enough or that you need to buy another candle and for an exuberant amount of money they can solve your problem. In some cases, they offer the help with the candle at first sight depending on your emotional state, but in other cases they keep you coming over and over to buy the same candle and more prayers. Believe it or not, these con artist they always find people that falls for this and easily they can pay their own personal luxuries thanks to your ignorance and suffering.

DON’T fall for the “Curse Scam”!  Curses can be real but for them to be real, they need a vital ingredient which is BELIEVE into it. The same goes with miracles, in which it needs a person saying a prayer with the intention to see the miracle, the same goes with curses. When a scam artist feels that there is nothing to hook you for during the reading, they come out with the most old tale of a curse. People that falls for this type of scam, in their pitiful emotional state, they believe in the curse and the worst a curse can have is the power of FEAR. Remember, you attract to yourself what you fear most, because is constant in your mind and the mind can play tricks on you, so if you believe in curses, chances are, YOU and ONLY YOU give power to that curse. The scam artist will offer you candles or stones for an inflated price and as long you continue attracting what you fear most, the curse will never go away and they will continue cashing-in on your misery.

Why paying for the services of Tarot readers, or Psychic Mediums?
    This is the question that most people ask when it comes to Tarot readers or Psychic Mediums. We can name several reasons of why. However, I am going to take the example of the person that sells you information, the“Free Lance Consultant”. These individuals goes beyond to find the information and resources you are seeking for your business or problem and they do it for a price. You pay this price because you don’t know the how and don’t have the time to look for it yourself. According with the amount of information and resources, including the time, and perhaps overhead expenses, they priced their efforts and handle it to you in a neatly invoice. Lets be real on this, the information you are getting despite they guarantied it, it does not means its going to work for your problem or your business, right?  More of it, there free lance consultants, that resolve the problem for you for a hefty price and you pay it, because you need it. If you read the small prints, you will find that the success is base of what you do with that information.

Another example is the Psychologists and Psychiatric, you pay them for them to hear your life from childhood to the present, with that information they can advice you in how to deal with your life or they can prescribe you a pill. They can’t guarantied the advice as a cure because what you do with it IF you follow it, is what make the service a success. More over, they will tell you at front, if you don’t follow or accept that you have a problem there is no need to expend time there if you don’t use the help. They charge for time and for their years of education in human psychology.

Now, lets take the skills of a Tarot reader and Psychic Mediums, the are also “Free Lance Consultants”. They seek for information to help you on your spiritual or emotional problem when you can’t do it for yourself or don’t have time to think in seeking better options. They might charge you for overhead expenses if apply. They might charge you for time, because the time they expend with your problem, they could expend it taking care of their own families like other professionals do, but they go out of their way to give you the information you need. Their prices varies depending in how good they are with their skills or how many are in the area. Some inflate their prices depending on demand or because they are doing this for a living. In either way, follow the dos and don’ts if you seek them.

There is no guaranties that the future they predict for you, will become a reality, because of your free will and because the future is not set in stone.
and one more thing read their sign…… “For Entertainment ONLY”.

Love and Light Everyone!


Great Book To Read is "The Street Smart Psychic Guide" by Lisa Barretta

To Be Homeless…

     When the word “Homeless” comes to mind, we usually get the typical image of seeing someone dressing with dirty clothes, living in the streets begging for money or food. However, the meaning of being homeless can go deeper than the typical image.

To be homeless or anything else we want to be, is a choice.

Why is a choice? Because with every action, we take and in every thought, we have formulated in our minds, we choose our battles as well our sorrows. Yes, we choose also to be homeless.

The truth of this matter is that you do not have to be in the streets or living in a car, to be homeless.

Take for example the people

Being Spiritual: On the verge of Civil War

    When facing the human reality in which we are living nowadays, like economical crisis, governments thrown out of power and people protesting against abuse from others, we have the choice while being spiritual of either take action or being apathetic to it. It is sad to see many Light workers and spiritual people lose their grip of this reality by thinking “If I don’t see it or thinking about it—this matter would not manifest or it will go away”. Obviously, many of them are confuse about the real meaning of Law of Attraction.

In Law of Attraction: FEELINGS is one of the main ingredients to ensure the manifestation of an event.

    When we ADD feelings to what we see, listen or experience, we create another reality. When we ADD feelings to what we want to accomplish

My Yin/Yang of Awareness

Several spiritual groups nowadays, advocates for spiritual awareness or to be aware as part of enlightenment. However, I have noticed how they slightly turn to behave like Christian fundamentalist when it comes to awareness---they choose selective awareness instead of see everything as part of a whole.

In everything we see around us, there is negative and positive energies to it, like yin and yang symbol. Darkness is the absent of Enlightenment, as ignorance is the absent of knowledge but somehow they all go together to create the awareness of its existent. We can choose either one but we cannot progress in spirit if you ignore the existent of the other.

Ignoring the existent of it, its like seeing a partial truth of something but not the whole truth, which it comes the question “Do you want to be rich in knowledge or just be half ignorant like the rest of the population?”

 I rather have the whole truth than having a half, since having half opens the door of speculation and with speculation comes ignorance and with ignorance comes FEAR.

I have tried to explain about being aware of everything as a whole but I have been shot down by those that live in fear, by those that are bow by laws of thought and attraction. Like telling me that I am not in the light when I acknowledge the existent of the dark.

I am aware that what I think and say create reactions, as they are not just words or thoughts. However, I have the tendency to see everything as a whole instead of one thing at the time. As a being of free will, I have the choice to live with what is for my highest best, as well the right to choose to be aware of everything going on around me, that either can affect me or affect the rest of the globe. Acknowledging others of incoming cosmic events, is never with the intention to create fear but to be aware and take precautions of survival.

It’s really sad how the vast of human population live in fear nowadays. Even the word Fear creates a chill through their spines. That is all fine, they made their choice to accept fear without acknowledge of courage.
I am a true believer that every single thing known to man and even those that we don’t have knowledge of, its full of possibilities and in those possibilities there is positive/negative forces. To be aware does not consist of be aware of one thing while ignoring its other side, to be aware consist of see everything as a whole—to see the whole picture of everything. The moment you focus in just one side, you loose track of awareness—because you can’t divide it since it was created as a whole.

A prime example of those that live in fear, is refusing to see the dark side of things, because by doing so—they bring more negativity in their lives as a karma joke; telling them to deal with it because is part of a whole. In their ignorance minds, they immediately turn to positive thinking to keep negativity away—but fear still there as well negativity because they are part of a whole of positive. Not acknowledging as a whole turn your life in a constant battle of good vs. evil, that make you wonder when it will stop?.

Next time you look at cosmic, global events or just your life experiences, don’t look at it as fear triggers but as part of awareness. See it as an opportunity to be grateful for what experiences you have accumulate. See it as an opportunity to be prepare and ready for what its to come and by all means—be in the awareness that you will be taken care for by God/Universe at all times.  Be whole, be one with God/Universe and learn to see everything from the whole perspective instead of one side of it.

Love and Light Everyone!

A Rabbit in My Dream!

I haven’t written my dreams for a while but recently I got a distinct dream that I can’t get out of my head. I guess it was the surprise to see a huge rabbit in my dream alone with having my friend being part of the dream. 
  
      In this dream, my friend and I climbed up to this hill top, with the idea to hunt for rabbits. Once in the top, I stand in the left side of the path, right besides this huge tall green tree. My friend was standing on the right side of the path, facing a stone fence. I noticed that right at the base of this huge tree, there was a black hole/tunnel or rabbit hole, I stick my arm to dig into the hole but all I felt was the soft fur of an animal. Not sure of what I was doing, I yelled at my friend asking for a flash light. He replied “Just a minute, I am getting this rabbit out of here”. I saw him digging under the stone fence and then suddenly he pulled by the ears, this huge grey rabbit from the dirt and rocks. I woke up from this dream, wondering the meaning of such dream.

Taking in account my understanding and the various meanings I have found in the internet about the underlined symbols of my dream, here is what I think the dream is about:

Despite the tight relationship between my friend and I, we both have similar life paths and goals. At this moment, I am dealing with my spirituality or spiritual growth while fixing things at the unconscious levels. Being in the left side of the path and besides a tall green tree, to me it represents the receiving part or looking for instructions/learning. On the other hand, seeing my friend in the right side of the path, it give the impression of him “giving” all his attention in obtain his goals and desires.

For me seeing the rabbit hole and putting my hand through it, touching nothing but fur, it gave me a sense of fear of what I was touching and despite I got the sense of what it was, I was still asked for a flashlight. This to me represents the latent fear of the unknown and my constant habit to analyzed things before I am get into it.

When it comes to spirituality, you have to trust what you sense, otherwise you get stuck in the analyzing part of it.

My friend was digging into the dirt like his life depended on it, obviously his desire is to get himself out from the situation he is in and finding the rabbit shows a good omen of what is to come. I remembered, seeing him crying of happiness in having this huge rabbit in his hands and how carefully he clean the dirt and rocks from the animal while showing it to me.

Perhaps, this dream is an omen of things to come for both of us, perhaps a teaching lesson for me. Time will tell about our fate and I am grateful to have this dream, as I remembered asking spirit the night before, of what it will become of both of us in the future?

Dream Symbols Meanings:


Hill: To climb one indicates honor and distinction to come.

A hill might become an obstacle that you have to overcome in walking life. http://www.dreamsleep.net/dream-meaning-dictionary-hill.html

To dream of climbing up a hill or mountain and reaching the top, you will overcome the most formidable obstacles between you and a prosperous future; but if you should fail to reach the top, your dearest plans will suffer being wrecked. http://www.experiencefestival.com/a/Climbing/id/235106

Tree: Green trees foretell realized hopes and desires fulfilled.

A tree in a dream can symbolize spiritual growth, a reaching for the heavens, or it may represent a growth in maturity, or it may even be symbolic of growth in grounding one's self firmly in one's life. http://www.bellaonline.com/articles/art35707.asp

Stones: Many confusions and failures

To see stones in your dreams, foretells numberless perplexities and failures. To walk among rocks, or stones, omens that an un even and rough pathway will be yours for at least a while. Small stones or pebbles, implies that little worries and vexations will irritate you. http://www.dreamsmeaning.org/2010/01/stone.html

Walls: Facing obstacles or detours

Any type of walls in your dream indicate a formality and that you need to control yourself in some way. A stone wall represents some obstacle that you need to overcome in order to be successful. http://www.auntyflo.com/dream-dictionary/walls-and-fences

Hole: You will soon be facing a long journey

A hole in the ground symbolizes an obstacle that you must avoid to achieve success at something in real life. It can also mean that you feel someone is hiding things from you. Rabbit Hole: If you dreamed of seeing a rabbit hole in the ground, this symbolizes hidden aspects of your waking activities. http://www.myjellybean.com/dream-dictionary/dream-dictionary-hole-hot-tub/pdf

Tunnels: Worries to come
Tunnels: You're accessing or dealing with issues that exist in your subconscious mind. http://www.mydreamvisions.com/dreamdictionary/symbol/987/

Fur: Detonates prosperity and many varied interest.

A dream featuring fur represents prosperity and good luck in money matters. The dream may also be symbolic of your animalistic and instinctual nature. http://www.myjellybean.com/dream-dictionary/dream-dictionary-friends-future

Rabbit: Business gains and happiness in love and in family life.

To dream of rabbits, foretells favorable turns in conditions, and you will be more pleased with your gains than formerly. http://dreaminterpretationsguide.com/dreamdictionary/r/?action=results&poll_ident=4

Seeing a rabbit in your dream, foretells of luck, magic and of a favorable turn of events and a positive outlook in your future endeavors. Alternatively, rabbits symbolize your sexual activity. http://www.hyperdictionary.com/dream/rabbits

Dirt: Could represent your state of mind or a situation from your daily life.

It could symbolize a relationship, a business venture, or any other part of your life where you or someone else has been less than honest and honorable. Dreaming about soil and the earth usually symbolizes fertility and the potential to grow. Rich soil may be an indication that the time is right for work and new beginnings. http://www.experiencefestival.com/a/Meaning_of_Dreams_about_Dirt_Earth/id/241698

Love and Light Everyone!

Happy 49th Birthday To Me!

     Most women when reaching certain age, they stop celebrating their birthdays for any given reason. However, I can say I am the exception to the rule , because I have so many reasons for celebrating life itself no matter where my travels have taken me.

  I remember saying back in the days when I was 16 years old “I won’t make it to my 20th”. Gosh I was quite wrong on that one! .

  When I just turned 16, I skipped school with a friend, to go to another town to meet a “Healer/wise woman”. Who used automatic writing to tell messages from spirits. Among everything she said to me, there was one prophecy that I laughed when I heard it. She said “I see you wearing a uniform and carrying bags, you will travel more than anyone in your family. You will be in strange lands with strange people. Your life will change with your travels as well you will change others through your travels”  I  though that what she said was pure amusement and far from be a reality, however what she said that day, had stick with me most of my life.

Nether less to say, my life did a 360 beyond my comprehension months after her prediction.

Her prophecy have come true many times through my life. I have traveled to foreign  lands since my 17th Birthday. To add more to it, I joined the US Army four days before my 27th Birthday. Joining the military, took me to even more far land and be among strangers. I wore an Army uniform for 20 years of my life, carrying bags everywhere I went. I have being in half of Europe, Bosnia (1995-96 war), Japan (2 times), Kuwait / Iraq (2008-09) and USA (East/South/West/Mid-West).

With all those travels, I have always celebrated my birthdays away from my homeland and family, always in far land among strangers.

Today, is my 49th Birthday, I am in a new state, alone, unemployed and living in a transitional housing for Veterans for the time being. I can literally say that with this birthday (despite all the obstacles, life have thrown at me), I am celebrating more than another year in my life…..

         Yes, I am celebrating the freedom of being who I am today.


I will never be shame of my true age, making it to 49th I found it quite amusing and full of wonder of what is next, LOL I laugh about it, since there no reasons for tears—life is too short and I have made my mission to enjoy every minute of it, not as my last but as my first.

I believe the best gift I have today, its to be able to look back and see that God have always being in my travels no matter how far and dangerous they were. To see that those foreign lands and places, became my home for the time being. That my life changed with my travels for better or worst, as well I change other’s lives. That no matter how lonely I felt, they were always someone to remember me, hug me and say “Happy Birthday”.

Celebrating the freedom of who I am, is the best celebration of my life, no matter how painful it have being or many obstacles I have encounter through it. No matter how many times others have try to change me into their ways with no success, or have done me wrong--I have standing tall and fight my way to be me at all times.

All I can say to you when you birthday comes, don’t see it as another year passed by, or something to be shame for… celebrate it as a day that is yours, a day for joy, a day to be grateful for all the experiences in your life good or bad.. because what you have done in your life, shapes who you are today.

Happy 49th Birthday to me!

Love and Light Everyone!

Resentment While On Spiritual Path

“Resentment or grudges do no harm to the person against whom you hold these feelings but every day and every night of your life, they are eating at you”. ~~ Norman Vincent Peale

The definition of “Resentment” is the experience of a negative emotion (anger or hatred, for instance) felt as a result of a real or imagined wrong done. It seems to me that when we embark in seeking a spiritual path, is when most negative feelings comes to surface, forcing us to deal with it in one way or another.

It’s not how you go by it, but what you learn from it, consequently moving on with your life and away from such negative feeling.

Like many others, I have being victim of resentment coming from others, making me wonder if is perhaps my hard core honesty that hurt them or perhaps my rejection. Feeling the resentment from this specific individual makes me take a deep look of how I see myself through this situation. Am I a victim or am I the villain in this situation? Or perhaps both? This all relate to “action and reaction law” or “cause and effect” of a specific event.

Through my life experience, I have found that the most resentful people I have ever met happen to call themselves, “Light Workers” or “Spiritual people”. Yes, I am talking about those that scream through their heart that they only work with the light, or live the path of truth. Funny is that they only brought this up when they have been put in the spot or their true self have been questioning. Consciously or unconsciously they are hindering their own spiritual path as a consequence. Do I hate this type of individual? No, but I have to admit I feel resentful of being blame for “imagined wrong done” by this individual.

I have done and said things for the sake of people I have known, that in turn it back fired me when I was naïve or ignorant of their true psychological state.

I have come to the conclusion that being resentful is not for my highest good and neither for the highest good of who I feel resentment for. As we attract what we fear most, we also attract to ourselves what we resent in others and I no longer want to be part of it in any sense or form. I have learn that when I resent others for their actions towards me, it really stop my progress through spirituality. This is because I stop in what I was doing, to analyze the reasons, caused and effects of the event for too long. Finding that I waste precious time through it, when I could involve myself in more creative ways to enhance my soul and evolve. It’s no longer a matter of question of who is to blame for, but how I move on while forgiving those that I resent or receive resentment from. I acknowledge that in order to go forward in my soul evolution, I have to let go of resentment for good.

Trust me; this is not an easy task at all, but a constant work. However, I am not going to stop in better myself while purging these feelings, because my aim is to evolve as a soul. Things do happen for a reason and there is a lot to learn from the feeling of resentment and how we feel from those that are resentful toward us.

Love and Light Everyone!

“Nothing on Earth consumes a man more quickly that the passion of resentment”. ~ Friedrich Nietzsche

Pendulum Board

      The skill of “Dowsing” have run in my family for generations. I still remember my grandfather Julio, when he took a tree branch in “Y” shape and search for water lines along the field he was working on. 

He was so good at it, people used to come from anywhere in the island, to hire him to search water lines.

Since 2007, I came across the need to use dowsing for answers and instead of using the old methods of my grandpa, I opted for the pendulum. I have study the mechanics of this tool and through trial and error, I can say I managed to make it work for me. I have to say that I am not fan of “Pendulum charts” at all. However, recently I stumbled with this pendulum board as its shown on the picture above and I am very impress with its performance.

The craftsmanship and positive energy from this board, its outstanding indeed. My pendulums started to work with it immediately, compared with charts I used in the past.  I usually don’t give reviews about items I buy online but when I do, I give credit where credit is deserved.

While using this board today, I asked few questions of importance to me. I can’t tell you the details of it, but I will tell you briefly about it.

I  asked about how long I will stay where I am right now and the answer was two months. So far, I have being here twelve days so time will tell. I asked about a job interview coming up and the answer is “yes” in being hire, so I will keep an eye open on that one. I asked of when I will meet the man that I will marry 3 years from now. I not only got the month, day, physical attributes of him,  but also the full name of this person ( CMO initials). This suppose to happen sometime in May of this year, so we will see.

I asked for an ongoing relationship at this moment and it points out about five months duration for it. It’s already two months of it, so time will tell. I must say, I am very impressed with the answers but more with the attitude of my pendulums with this board. I was so attracted to it, I got to buy it and I am glad I did. Below I will post a video of the creator of this board, hope you enjoy this item as much as I do.

Pendulum Board by Rev. Rose


You can also find her board at the Etsy.com store, here. 

I will keep an eye on the predictions given by this board using my pendulums, so stay tune more to come..

Love and Light Everyone!.

2010…And You Thought It’s Over?

   Rambling about 2010 and what is to come in 2011…
Gosh, this year 2010 was quite a year indeed, from beginning to end! So many hard lessons as well so many tears.

This is my 2010’s review:

First, January/February 2010 started with spiritual discoveries.. new energies. It was a time of joy and deep understanding of everything I encountered with, through 2009.

March 2010, I learn about the damages that earthbound spirits can do, specially when it relate to immature people. Consequently, it caused for me to end a friendship that no longer was enhancing my soul. It was indeed a time for me to wit out who is no longer working in the light……because for them, it was more fun to work in the DRAMA of it, than finding an understanding through it. I am grateful of this happened, because through it, I found my own healing light. Consequently, I walked away from other people’s drama and for it, I am so glad that for once, I paid attention to spirit on this matter.

April 2010, tragedy stroke my life in so many levels. At the beginning of this month, I was involve in a car accident from which the lost  of a life came as a result of it.  Despite I survived it, I faced not only the physical pain from it,  but the most outrage anger and injustice of others towards me.  I have lived dark times in my lifetime, but this event indeed was the top of it, as the worst…..because this event took me to consider suicide.

I looked back to those days, and I feel deep shame, that someone like me that used to be so full of life and loving life, I almost end my own for the pain I was living. All I can say, I am glad I didn’t, because it would be a terrible waste indeed…

It was during this time, that I found who was the real friends…

For months, I wondered…. why I didn’t die during that tragic car accident?  Why I was spare to face this hell around me?. It took a while for me to make peace with it, but the most hardest part, was for me to find peace within me. I am Thankful that during this time, I found myself through spirituality, that gave me the strength to keep on living. I know, God spared me because he has greatest plans with me and that keeps me going, to see what is next in my life.

May 2010, when thought that everything will be ok, everything turn wrong around me. My husband was forced to face the reality of today’s economy, almost forcing him to close his restaurant after 45 years in business. This not only affected me but the whole family. Despite that, he tried his best to keep it going the best he could, up to the final closing day in later months.

August 2010, going through the stress to almost loosing my job. These were days  in which everything that happened since April, resulted in suffering of a deep depression. It made me to drop on my knees and asked again for God to help me, because I needed intervention. I must said that helped did came, didn’t loose my job and neither my income, but in the process I became victim of much injustice and conspiracies… I know this will pass somehow…someday..

As months passed, facing to loose everything came upon me..

October 2010, I came to terms of letting go of everything that reminded me pain. I was looking at everything I have accumulated since 1993 and decided to get rid of it for good. I cried through this entire cleansing, because it opened so many past wounds. On this month, I gave away all the furniture I purchased and brought with me from Germany, because it reminded me of ex-husband. A man that managed to almost destroy me emotionally.

I got rid off of the things I acquired from all the countries I have visited, I just saw it as lifeless things that no longer keep their splendor. I found letters from ex-hubby…. its amazing that the letters starting very loving the first years and full of hate at the end of the marriage. As I read a couple of them, I took a deep breath and realized that is a life experience done and gone, as I exhale… I felt the release of letting go of that part of me.

Though this cleansing, I went through my closet and saw all the clothes that I no longer use, due to no longer fit me but I keep thinking that one day they will… alone with it, I found my military uniforms from 20 years back to present. I was glad to put everything in plastic bags and tossed it on the streets for the garbage man. I didn’t have the heart to give away those clothes to others, thinking that who ever get it, will have my misfortune as well….the garbage man came later on with his family and loaded all the bags in his car…hope nothing but happiness for them.

November 2010, Time to face reality…. This have become a month in which forced me to take a deep look at my job. It’s obvious that I won’t be able to keep my old job, due too much pain and emotional stress. It’s time to move on and perhaps try something new that doesn’t require to use an uniform or better yet, relocate away from the entire state.

December 2010, facing the ultimate in letting go of what no longer works in my life……marriage. We both have hold tight to the relationship despite we know deep inside is not working for both of us.

 Little by little and day by day, we let go of each other as we go..

However, its time to let go in separate ways and face life alone. I don’t know if he is ready for it, but I know I am. I realized that I can’t hold tight to someone that have to find himself and refuse to do so. I can’t keep going living someone's karma alone with mine.

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I look at all I have being through in 2010 and believe me, it takes guts to share a part of my life with anyone that might stumble on this blog. The way I look at it.. we ALL mirrors of each other. Some of you might have live this already, some of you are glad that haven’t live this at all, or perhaps like me… some of you may wonder what is next.. I only hope that you understand that despite all the bad things we go through life, we have to keep on living…because not everything is bad.. there are moments of joy worth living for..

2010, was a year of lessons, trials, tears, self-discovery, physical losses and letting go of what no longer worked in my life...but above all, in this year I have learn forgiveness in all levels. Sometimes we have to forgive the events that happen in our lives, as well forgive ourselves for the feelings and actions we put through those events.

I know its not over….

2011, will be a year of challenges, survival, triumphs and more let go of what is not enhancing my soul.. but sure I know, it will be a lot better than 2010 and that alone, keeps me going to see what is next.. 

Love and Light Everyone!

My Life As a Bookshelf

As we go through life, sooner or later we face the question about our existence and what we have learned from it. I am sure we all have our stories and theories of what life is about and moreover, there is no right or wrong from it, since it’s a matter of perception.

Today, I ponder about what have being my life and what popped into my mind, was a big bookshelf full of books, bookends and decorations.

No, I don’t mean this from the fact that I love to read books, but from the wisdom I got while filling my bookshelf (life/human body) with books (knowledge) through my entire life. The way I see how we start life as a bookshelf, start through birth, with an empty new bookshelf. As we grow up, we start our first book  from recognizing our parent’s faces and voices, to simple commands of how to behave among others. That first year of life turns into the first book in our bookshelf, full of experiences and emotions, that we soon mastered it, moving on to acquire more books.

As we go through life, we acquire books on subjects like family, honor, values, religion, love, marriage, divorce, sadness, friendship, betrayal, abuse, among many others. We get books from self help to dramatic novels, from which some of us tend to live the drama over and over, making it part of our lives as an extension of us.

Sometimes, we allow others to wonder in our bookshelf. We even share our books or give them away,  or perhaps we read passages from our books to others, thinking that they might need the knowledge more than us. Sometimes we show our bookshelf to others, bragging about what we have, in which most cases, is full of books that we started but never finished. Some of us, put doors with keys on our bookshelf, thinking that we can keep our books guarded from others, while others put glass doors into it, like telling you  that you can see but you can’t touch.

As years pass, we either take care of our life’s bookshelf by giving it a fixing upper of varnish, add odd colors to it, adding/ taking shelves from it, expanding up or sideways or perhaps just shining its surface with oils.

On the sad side, some of us, often forget to take care of the bookshelf by becoming busy reading one book over and over, consequently allowing dust and bugs to be rambling around our bookshelf and into the rest of our books.  Then we give a good look at it and we choose of either clean it or have others to clean it for us. Some just stop reading books and abandon the bookshelf, thinking that its not worth it to keep on with it.

Looking at the books in my life’s bookshelf, I see all sizes, from thick to thin books. Some have colorful covers, while others are dark. Some look new, others showing signs of years pass. Some have bookmarks with colorful tassels or a bended page, to remind me to go back to it, when needed. Some of the book I started them with lots of enthusiasm putting it quick to the side, to wonder in other books, soon forgetting to finish what I started or what I have learned so far.

At one point or another, we start to organize on our books and after remembering what we have learned from certain category of books, we decided to add a bookend.

Sometimes we use those bookends to change our whole outlook in life and consequently we start acquire books with subjects new to us, starting a new collection of books. As the bookshelf gets old and its shelves cave in with the weight of the books we have acquired, we start wondering, what we can do with it. As everything in life, we have choices… we can give away and share our books to release the weight on the shelves, or we can start fill some of its shelves with decorations instead of books, to remind us the simple things of life that give us joy.

I have faced my bookshelf today and have noticed all the books, bookends and decorations in it, some of them I am proud of it, some of them not so…I am cleaning it up the best I can, shaping it to match my higher self.  I know for certain, that when my bookshelf stop to exist in this lifetime… all the knowledge and experience I got from its books, I am taking it with me… because is what makes me who I am…

I am sure that in the next life, I will have a new bookshelf and will continue getting more books…

Love and Light Everyone!

When The Energy of a Place Takes Life of It's Own!

       Have you ever, being in a place that for no particular reason changes your own personality or perhaps your circumstances? If you answer is yes, believe me--you are not alone. Taking in consideration that everything around us is “energy” as well we are sources of energy through our emotions; believe me the energy of a place can affect us in tremendous ways.

Some people are more sensitive to energy compared to others, but when an “Empath” is exposing to such, it can bring them to their knees beyond comprehension.

       Back in the 60s, while in Puerto Rico, I grew up in a new house, surrounded by mostly older people, since their behavior was extremely conservative, I grew up being very shy for no physical reason. My parents thought there was something wrong with me that even put me through doctors with the hope to find something physical but no results.

Right after in my teenager years, we moved to a house that literally set my family apart. Understanding energy, now I am convincing there was something to do with the energy of the house itself. Digging on the story of the house, I found out that a woman died at the house after have being abandon by a spouse and her hate for man took her to her grave.

While living in that house, the verbal fights started, alone all of us being on each other’s throat. Everyone change in behavior in ways too long to describe. Eventually, my mother was abandon by my father and she ended up hating man until this day. More odd was, during my first marriage, we moved to that house and yes, the same pattern of energy disrupted us causing the same effect and outcome.

We fill the air with our emotions and thoughts, which consequently turn into energy.

To save the marriage, I moved to Germany where I stationed with the Army and felt like the whole energy of the old house lifted up from us. However, I soon noticed that the area where we were at, was where some significant WWII events took place and the energy staggered in the place soon reveled itself. It was a constant sensation of sorrow, desperation, hope and at times terror.

By the time, I moved to Ft. Lee VA just my daughter and me, soon things started to change to worst. I thought that the divorce created discordance between us, but soon I learn that our back yard was the Petersburg  battlefields during the "Civil War". Such energy almost destroyed us.

Right after, I moved to Mississippi and sure, we engaged in an energy ride from hell. We are near to not only another "Civil War" battlefield, but also close where old plantations used to be at. You can only imagine the type of energy I am exposing every day. The worst of this place is the people that constantly revive that past by feeding themselves with greed, racisms and hate.

Over here, the energy has taken a life of its own, capable to disrupt the most spiritual person and more beyond an “Empath”.

I have come to a point in which I want to leave this place but for each attempt I do, the negative energy of this place, try to hold me down by causing more disruption in my life. I remember before I moved here my aunt told me “do not move to Mississippi, people that go there either disappear or have back luck”. I thought she was full of it but now I can see why… it is the energy of the place that makes people behaves in odd ways, consequently affecting everyone’s lives and circumstances.

I am sure if you have traveled around the world like myself, you can see the difference in energy and emotions from place to place. You might think, there is no safe place where to be, however there are places where the energy is better than others. Just do your homework when decided to move to a place, because not everything that look beautiful at first, is what it “feels” like later on…

Love and Light Everyone!
xoxo

Tomorrow Will Be Better Than Today…

   When things gone wrong in our lives, how many times we have heard that “tomorrow will be better than today”?  I bet you you heard it many times. We heard  it from others as a consolation statement and we even repeat it in our heads in an attempt to believe that tomorrow somehow, will be better than today….but how about if you don’t see that tomorrow?

   I have come to the understanding that if today things in my life are not right and if I don’t do anything about it to fix it, sure enough, I won’t see tomorrow being better than today.

I said this because most of us,  go through life with ideals of what should be perfect. Like the perfect job, perfect marriage, perfect family, and perfect relationships with our friends. When things goes wrong with those ideals, we have the choices to either change it, change ourselves, tolerate it or walk away from it. However, most of us ended up tolerate it or put up with it, by compromising and consequently making everyone happy but ourselves.


On the other hand, must of us go through life by building our own little worlds around those perfect ideals, forgetting that if we don’t take care of us from within and work toward better ourselves as human beings, we will not see tomorrow being better than today. Some of us just seat and wait for miracles, forgetting that even miracles need a prayer and intention to manifest. Others go pretending to have a perfect life by putting a show of happiness and abundance for everyone to see it  or becoming a walking bill board screaming “I am happy” while their inner truth are rotten them from inside. 

You see, everything is about choices and with those choices, you have to find balance.

Looking at my life, I have noticed that I made choices of tolerate others without saying a word or a complain to them, because of the fear to be alone. Like others, I made the mistake to try to change them with love or by pleasing them---finding later on, that they have their own karma to carry and it’s not up to me to change others but up to them to change their own ways, perhaps by my example. You see, we are responsible for our own happiness and that happiness should not be the slavering of your own self for others. It’s funny how we confuse real love at times, isn’t it?.


I just came to the choice to change myself to a better me, while walking away from those that refuse to better themselves. I realized, that to see a better tomorrow, its start within me while changing my surroundings. After years of tolerating others, I am walking away leaving them with their own karma, while I will try to recover from all the bad choices I have made. I need to do this today, in order to see a better tomorrow. All I can tell you is, that what ever is wrong in your life today, do what ever it takes to make  it what you want it to be in reality, but by all means do not tolerate or put up with it, because if you do, you will loose your truth self and the opportunity to be happy.
Love and Light Everyone!
xoxo

Yellow Snakes in My Dream....

       I am sure everyone have dreams where snakes are present, however I passionately dislike snakes. It's being a long time since I have dream involving snakes but the dream of last night was quite different than others, due to the fact that I managed to control the snakes.

       In my weird dream... I saw this man inside a cage struggling with two giant yellow snakes. The snakes were entwined together while the man was holding both snakes by their heads. He was calling me to help him out..I went inside the cage and graped one of the snakes by the head, while it's body was trying to wrapped my legs. I took the head of the second snake from the man's hands and somehow, I managed to talk to both snakes and created some kind of energy that put them apart..both snakes ended up in different sides of the cage, looking at each other while I was in the middle.



I was standing in the middle of this cage with my hands up like holding the snakes with an invisible energy, but without touching them. I then looked and yelled at the man, telling him to get out of the cage and look for more help. When I looked up for the two snakes, they multiplied into 5 snakes, all around the cage. I sure hate snakes but I was not afraid in this dream at all.

Snakes in dreams generally symbolize: messengers, rebirth, resurrection, initiation and wisdom, but I have another view from it. Trying to make sense of this dream, all I can think of, was about two choices that I have to do with my life, coming these next two month. I have two choices that are tangle or relate with each other, in either stay in a job that I hate and suffer the consequence of injustice or quit the job and suffer the consequences of starting over. It appears to me, that by learning to control or acknowledge it, it multiplied in more choices. The cage represent my on-going situation, in which I am stuck looking my surrounding through the cage's bars. In the dream I have a choice as well in reality. I can either continue in apathy and ignore it or jump into it and take control. The man can be my spouse since this situation also affect him, but he leaving the cage, shows that this situation becomes my own to deal with.

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Looking more into snakes, for Native Americans, the snake is a symbol of transformation and healing. To Meso-American societies, represented their greatest god and hero, Quetzalcoatl. In Greece the snake was symbol of alchemy and healing. An example of that was the god Hermer, who carried a staff with two snakes entwined into it. In India the goddess Vinata was the mother of snakes and a symbol of water and the underworld. In Eastern traditions, the serpent or snakes symbolize the sexual and creative life force within humans. Also snakes are relate with the Kundalini which is relates with the spine, which in turn activates the energy centers in the body and mind, known as chakras. In Chinese astrology, those born under the snake sign, have qualities of compassion, clairvoyance and charm. In Egypt, signified wisdom, understanding as well death and rebirth.

Every time a snake is in a dream, one can expect death and rebirth to occur in some area of one's life, that can be into new powers of creativity and wisdom. It can also be a change in conditions and a quick shift movements to one's life.

Meanings of the color yellow: breaking mental blocks, mental force, clarity, perception, understanding, wisdom, dishonesty, betrayal, jealousy, covetousness, deceit, disease, weakness, caution, cowardice, follower, curiosity, mellowness, desire to improve, action, idealism, optimism, imagination, hope, uncertainty, restlessness, glory, enlightenment.

To see more about the meaning of the color of yellow, read Meanings of Colors by Sobrietystones

My dream is just a glance of whats coming soon and I will have to choose, which at this moment everything feels uncertain and scary.. but I know deep inside that since I was taken care of all my life, I know God will take care of me again.. :)

Love and Light Everyone!

Solar Flairs Warnings!

Messages to Myself

It never stops amazing me, how much we relay in technology nowadays. We have cell phones, IPods, computers and all kind of gadgets to do almost anything. Its like, if there is something we want to do; we always find a gadget or an application to make it happen.

       I sure wish there was one of those applications, when I lost my cell phone the other days. Yes, like an application in which you can click a button and tells you where is at or deactivate it, before it ended up in the wrong hands. I am sure, is there such application or gadget to help find your other gadgets, it will come handy some how.

In my case, I lost my cell phone for 2 days, so my search started in the first place I saw it last, my purse. I empty that sucker out and no sign of the phone. Then, I went to both of our cars and no sign of my cell phone. The search started to be more in tune and aggressive, when after searching in the most common places was not good enough.

I started room-by-room, checking laundry, washer and dryer, yes--even the cat’s littler box—as I said, sometimes you can find what you looking for in the most odd places. LOL

No sign of the cell phone, and as a last resort, I seek my pendulum for answers. I figured, if dowsing is good for finding water and mineral, it should be good to find my darn cell phone as well. In my desperation and watching this pendulum swinging in every direction except for the one I was looking for, I was getting quite agitated and edgy.

However, the pendulum not being enough help, I started the search again, in the same places while sweating my butt off and getting quite angry about it. I tried to calm down, because I knew that in the state of mind I was, I was not bound to get results. So what I did? I call my own phone and to my back luck, it kept going to voice mail. This alone, was not good since it made my mind to go wonder in where this phone might be. Of course, I started thinking the worst..

I start to take deep breaths of air and as I try my best to calm down, I continue calling my cell phone fewer times more. I started to leave messages into it, with the hope someone will pick up. I thought to myself, “God, this is so insane, please help me to calm down, there is no use for me to loose my peace over this electronic gadget”.

       So after leaving few messages in my cell phone’s voice mail, I sat and watch TV for a while, when I saw this woman searching her purse for a piece of paper that she found it, her purse’s pocket. A light bulb, turn on in my head and I looked for the same purse I searched early, and there is was my cell phone, in one of the front pockets. I just sat down with it and started to mentally recalling all the search and rescue maneuvers I did early all around the house and outside for this darn piece of electronic hell. I Thank God, and the woman on the TV, for showing me the way; believe me--it was quite an experience.

About 2 days passed, I pick up my cell phone to get out of the door, when I noticed an arranged of voice mails in my cell phone. It was a mixture of friends’ messages alone with the messages I left in my cell phone while searching for it. As I dial to hear the messages, I was shock of hearing my own voice…

First, was my sweet voice saying “Hello…. Please pick up!” Then my voice started to be more intense, like “Helloooooooooooooooooooo, where in the hell are you!” Later on, my voice was more agitated like “Hello, who ever have my phone, it better return it, or else!” Finally, I heard my voice of anger and despair, saying “Listen, you sorry thug, if you have my phone, I am going to track you down and when I find you, I am going to kick your ass… your heard me!.. I will kick your ass!... After hearing this in my own voice, I was scare of my own shadow for sure, wondering if my other me, will come and kick my ass for real…

I sure laughed about the whole deal but then I thought; Thanks God that the phone did not ended up in someone’s hands, I will feel sorry for who ever heard those messages, LOL

I have learn valuable lessons from this event; Yeap, never allow an electronic gadget to turn you in something that you usually are not, and above all… never leave threaten messages to your self in your own cell phone.

48 Going On 26!

     Yes, another Birthday!… I never thought I would make it this far, as matter of fact, I always thought that I will die young, gosh.. how wrong I was about that one!.. here I am celebrating my 48th Birthday.. another day in my life.

You may wonder why I say “48 going on 26”, is because at 26th I was in the best physical shape and it was the start of my adventure through the whole world.

Here I am at home, looking back at my life and getting amaze by everything I have gone through, in this past 48 years. It’s like my life has being mark with adventure and tragedy all at once. I have gone through bad childhood, spouse abuse, divorce, two marriages, motherhood from hell, two battlefield experience while in the military, traveling half of the world, law enforcement work, and fewer brushes with death.

I have lived a very intense life, maybe more than other people I have known. Those days were hell and despite all my emotions and actions of those days, I survived each one of them. I don’t consider myself lucky at all, but in a way I think I have being Bless by God.. because despite the consequence of my free will and actions at times, he has managed to put me back in the path of my life’s mission.

At this point, I don’t think is about how much I have acquire through life, but how I lived and survived it.. giving me the experience and wisdom I have today. Gosh, I wished I have knew then, what I know now, I am sure it would save me so much tears and grief. However, everything happened for a reason or purpose and I have 48 years not only to witnessed it but to understand it.

Someone asked me, if I can travel through time to change something from my life that I didn’t like, what it would be? I thought for few minutes on this question and I came to the conclusion that even the good or bad experiences and those that I am not proud at all from it.. I wouldn’t change a thing, because I believe it was necessary to live through it. I believe, if I would change something, I wouldn’t be who I am today.

In the last 17 years, I have always celebrate my birthday away from my homeland Puerto Rico, always being in a different part of the world, doing things that I never thought in a million years I will be doing, and today is not different. Today I am in my house alone with my two cats, waiting for my husband to come home. I don’t feel literally alone, because despite my friends and family are miles away, there are always with me where ever I am.

Yes, I have lots to celebrate today--not only because is my birthday, but because I have a lifetime to be grateful for, a lifetime which made who I am today..   Happy Birthday to me! .. :)

Love and Light everyone! xoxo

Spirit Talks or Mediumship with Tarot & Konxari Cards!

       After reading a Facebook post by my Tarot friend Donnaleigh de LaRose, I felt curiousity into deal with these cards personally. Recently, I purchased them and at first, I didn't think anything extraordinary when I saw them, due to their small size compared to common Tarot cards, but the beautiful creative photographs into it, makes these cards one of the kind.

In my opinion, these cards should not be taken as a toy as many used the infamous Quija Board in past years. I believe like with any divination tool, it requires knowledge of how to protect itself from spiritual energies. As well as it opens a door, it's important to know how to close it. Spirit messages can be manifest in so many ways that it can make the most skeptic become a believer and Konxari cards are good example of it as well is Tarot cards when it comes as tools of divination. Konxari cards are indeed great tool for paranormal investigations. Read my experience below the video clip.



       

My personal experience:

When using these cards, my intention was not to communicate with anyone in specific, but to look into a problem/solution matter. After grounding and spiritually protect myself before using these cards. I shuffled the cards and placed them upside down, skipping the cards require by the little manual that came with these cards. I was shock to see that the cards pointed out an incoming situation within my job place. Looking at them at first by sequence, it didn't make too much sense to me, so I used a pendulum to find the real sequence of it. The message changed after changing the sequence into the following cards: Door, Legend, Night, Other worldly, Hatred, Underground, Movement, Angel, and Life.

By looking at it, I saw that everything is relate with something to come starting in the second week of August. This is what I understood in the cards; that when I will return back to my work after a long absent(Door). I will be facing a person who is trying to forbidden me to reenter in my job place (Legend). I know that I will face people hiding in the shadows during this time frame full of speculations and opinion (Night, Other worldly, Hatred). The last three cards is showing me a solution of the problem as unknown forces moving underground (Underground, Movement) with the relief of seeing an Angel card intercepting through this period and showing me the rest of my life as an opportunity to keep moving (Angel, Life).

At this point this is ALL what I understood from it, but this time its to come soon and it's up to show me the truth of this message as it develops. It's curious to see, that among the letters of each card, it's pointing out three letter of a week day (TUE), which is a Tuesday in where is my final doctor's appointment and possibly I will be release back to work (August 10th). It also shows a date as September 8th, perhaps as final outcome of the problem. I am just going to seat and see how this message from these cards develops and how accurate it will be. I will update this post as it happens, so stay tune..


To read more about these type of cards, you can see the Konxari website at:
www.konxari.com

Just remember this...... this is not a toy or party favor of any sort

Contagious Diseases: “I Can’t” Syndrome

     This disease is more common in our society or way of life that most people think. Although several of us have suffered from this disease, most survived it through positive thinking and change of outlook. The symptoms of “I can’t Syndrome” are more visible, when most people are unable to clear their minds to see the solutions and substitute the needed of action by saying “I can’t”. Be advice, this disease can be contagious with constant interaction with affected individuals.

Origins of “I can’t Syndrome:
Childhood

Some of the victims of this disease come from child abuse or