The Story of Us: Wayne Kelly Lecus Sr.

This story is about a man whom I shared three years of life, until his death on April 23rd 2014. I learn valuable lessons with his life and passing—to realize that life is just as spectrum of possibilities between good and no so good experiences. We born, we grow, we learn and when everything is in place in accordance with our life plan, then we die—to move on to another realm or perhaps another life.

Here is the story of us…

Our story begin in the spring of 2011, Wayne was an US Navy veteran who after several stumbles through his life, he arrived on March 11, to the Veteran Assistance Program of Union Grove for Homeless Veterans—with the hope to find relief for his pains and get his life back. As an US Army veteran myself, I arrived to the same place on April 17^th, and after grieving my own personal lost, I met Wayne on April 23, 2011.

He came to my dining table and presented himself, “Hi, My name is Wayne, glad to meet you”. I looked at him and thought that this is just another crazy gringo of the facility, but I shook his hand and from there a great friendship started that turn later on in the most amazing love story experienced by both of us. We worked together at this center helping other homeless veterans like us. We did everything together from cooking, travel, going to festivals, theaters, but the most thing we enjoyed, was fishing.


We were so different in many ways: He was Navy, I was Army, he was from USA and I am from Puerto Rico. He was a rebel against the law while I was a Law Enforcement officer in Mississippi.

However, the strong bond among us, was the experience to lose everything and everyone important in our lives—becoming homeless.

Wayne was a happy goer that seems like anything didn’t worry him, despite that all his sorrows were eating him inside. He was the kind of human being that went the extra mile for anyone in need, despite not having money or health to complete the task. He was always joking even when at times, he was the only one laughing. He was never in self-pity and often he didn’t allow his past, to put him down. He lived every minute of his life like it was his last—nothing can’t wait for tomorrow, he had to do it today. Little by little this crazy gringo, took my heart and soul when we fall in love.

That amazing day was a 4 of July of 2011, we were at the Eagle Lake of Racine County—fishing. We sat there for a while waiting for the fish to bite. When we started to share our lives stories and what brought us to be homeless. We noticed that among all the difference between us, we were just human beings that made mayor mistakes and dearly paid for it. That day, we cried together while laced in each other arms and then we kiss for the first time. I knew then, that I just met my soul mate.

It’s ironic—about our lives path, how different but the same. During our military careers, we were in the same places—but we missed each other, either by a couple of months or a year. Often we recall on this and agreed that we might not like each other if we were met then, as much as we did through the last 3 years of our lives together.

When I was down, he was always trying to cheer me up—he used to sing me the song “You are my sunshine and my only sunshine, you made me happy when times are grey” For Wayne, no matter the hardships, he was always optimistic and resourceful—what he couldn't get, he will build it, that was sure—he was a handy man against the odds.

As homeless, we raised each other from the ground up, we were proactive and driven to get our lives back or better for what they were and we accomplished that with love. I helped him through all his health problems. In two occasions, he was close to death—first with a busted appendicitis on November 2011, then he spend 14 days in the hospital, from which he was in ICU for 7 days on August 2012, where he was experiencing all the emotions he can hold with double pneumonia and first stages of COPD. Wayne was not the healthiest guy, with a broken back and many health issues—but to me, he was a perfect man. We always looked beyond what we lack, to see-- just our souls.

We did everything together, and when apart—we couldn't wait to be with each other again. We spoiled rotten each other—he was a great cook, while I kept buying him Coke and tools and taking care of his body pains. He was the kind of man that kept my house clean and supper ready at the end of my work day. He knew the time I was arriving and he always was at the door to give me a kiss, saying “Hi Babe, I missed you—get ready I have a great supper for you”. By the time I changed my work clothes, he served my dinner first then his—we end our day, watching TV while talking about everything and doing plans for the next day. He was very romantic and loving with me—always giving his heart and soul on everything we do together. We loved to go to thrift stores where we bought damage goods and restore to new. We went fishing every time we could—gosh we got so many fun days and stories from those fishing days. Nether less to say, at times we didn't get any fish, but Wayne was able to find things in the road that we end up taking with us.

Wayne was indeed a lucky man in many ways, even when finding stuffs on the roads. He even found money at 45 miles per hour. That day I was driving him into Racine, when he begged me to turn around because he saw something—I pleased him despite I was complaining about it and sure enough he spot a $20 dollar bill. That event to Wayne, was like he won the lotto—nevertheless to say that we end up going to the movies for free, Thanks to the extraordinary eye sight of Wayne. Other than fishing, Wayne loved to play mechanic with his car and everyone’s cars—pretty often he shine through it.




One time, we both were tasked to go to a Catholic elementary school to give a
speech about our military lives. Wayne was nervous and anxious about it. I was worry about how he will direct himself to these kids, since Wayne can say crazy stuffs at times. I bought him clothes and shoes for this event, went online and got him Navy pictures for our power point presentation. All I told him was, “talk about what you know and let it flow—but please don’t embarrassed me”. I was sweating bullets as he approached to face the class room. However, Wayne not only impressed those kids but really surprised me with his calm collected speech and his Navy knowledge. He indeed was a jack of all trades.




His driven desire was to become healthy and stop drinking and smoking—which he accomplished it. He stopped drinking for the last 3 years of his life and stopped smoking since August 2012. He even went to college for two semester to obtain a degree in CAD design—that he couldn’t finish due to his health.
He did everything, always thinking about his two sons, for which he lived in regrets for let them down and unable to stand for them—he only wanted for them to feel proud of him. I helped him to get his social security benefits for him to accomplish getting his life back. His ultimate goal was to get his sons back in his life—to give them a good life with the best he could, with true love. He loved those kids so dearly—he was trying to do the impossible to get them back. I supported him all the way—despite I knew deep inside me, he will not be successful in this task. I helped him to get an apartment and did my best to furnished it—I did it, for him to have a good start and to stop being homeless as he was from 2006.

While all this, in the past 3 years of his life, I was there in his every moments of laughter, his joys and sorrows. His last two weeks were not the greatest—starting with April 14^th 2014 when he lost his sons for the second time. I came from work to found Wayne crying for his kids—while going through all the human emotions you can think of. I told him, not to worry that life goes on, that at least his kids knows that he tried.
I raised him again through the fun stuffs we used to do and he was content but sad. Two days before his death, he was not doing well health wise, he was consuming by his back pain. I nurtured him the best I could and took care of him. On April 23, 2014 I woke up as usual to head out to work. He got up and asked me if I wanted for him to make me breakfast for which I told him “No honey, go back to bed and rest—take it ease today”. At the moment of leaving, I brushed his hair, caressed his face and gave him a sweet kiss on his lips—telling him “I love you babe, see ya’ when I return home”—he responded “I love you too, you have a great day, see ya’ later”.

I wanted to call sick that day, but went to work. All day, I felt wrong—despite my discontent with the job with its daily driving from Burlington to Milwaukee. Last time I talked on the phone with Wayne was during my lunch at 11:00 am. He talked to neighbors, friends and the landlord before he decided to work on his car around 3:00 pm for what I was told. I arrived home around 6:45 pm, when I got into the parking I saw him under his car—I thought he was working under it, so I parked my car someplace else. Came down to him and told him to stop working on his car but he didn't respond. That is when I noticed something was terribly wrong. I panic, tried to raise the car off him but couldn't, I screamed my heart out in that parking lot asking for help but no one heard me. I called the police which they responded quickly but it was too late, Wayne was gone for a long while before my arrival for what I was told by police.

None of you, have any idea what I felt that day of his death—I saw my whole world crushed under that car realizing that I lost my soul mate. Wayne to me was everything, he was my home to come to, the love of my life, my best friend—the human being that truly tough me what love is really about. How ironic life can be, we born and we lived through life with its ups and downs, living every possible human experience we can have, good or bad—without realizing that can be gone in a split second. With him gone, life for me will not be the same ever again. The 3 years that we spend together to us was like 20, but something I can say—Wayne was loved and happy in his end days, despite of the life turns that tried to keep him down in every turn. He might be gone physically but I know he is everywhere in spirit—with no more pain and sorrows.

~~~*~~~

Wayne’s funeral was on April 27th 2014, after the wake his body was cremated and taken to the Wisconsin Veteran’s Home of Union Grove, Wisconsin where he got a Military burial as it was his wish.





The ceremony was short and sweet, but with all the respect that Wayne deserved as a US Navy Veteran. The gathering was of family and close friends, as well few of us that share time with Wayne while being homeless at the Veteran’s Transition housing of Union Grove. During the sound of taps and salute, myself and all the veterans friends of Wayne, stand up to salute Wayne as the gun salute took place.




The American Flag was fold over the remaining of Wayne, with the respect and silence particular of these ceremonies.







The American Flag was given to Wayne’s mother.  Who I saw placing the flag over her chest as the Navy Officer was saluting for the last time.






After all this, Wayne’s ashes were carry by US Navy personnel, while Wayne’s parents walk in front of them. Wayne’s resting place is the Veterans Home Cemetery of Union Grove Wisconsin. He is at the wall facing the street and behind the flags,  Grave no. 2-C






I am telling the story of this man, that I had the privilege to know him and being with him in the most loving relationship we ever have. not because he tough me life lessons in a short time of 3 years, but because his memory, his smile and unique personality I wanted to be on this page for years to come—hoping his sons will be able to see and cherish it, as I do today.

My dear Wayne, you became a blessing in my life they day I met you and I glad that I helped you and gave you and myself the best 3 years of our lives.

To you Wayne, My love  Happy Birthday!….. I will always love you. Liz Figueroa

 

In loving memory of  Wayne Kelly Lecus Sr

Born May 25 1963

Died April 23 2014

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Evolution of a Tarot Reader

       When first comes to mind the vision of a Tarot reader, we usually associated it with Gypsies or perhaps an old woman with her head wrapped around with a scarf. Or better yet, we associated it with someone telling you an extraordinary tales for an amount of money. However, Tarot readers have come a long way from what people think they might be.

    Cartomancy or as it is known to be the ability to fortune-telling by interpreting a random selection of playing cards, is not longer attributed to Gypsies—this knowledge now is use by people from all path of life. If you asked a reader now days, what they used to do before they started reading cards for the public—you might be surprise of the amount of highly educating people alone with their religious background.

    In my case, I grew up through 3 religions or beliefs: Roman Catholic, Santeria and Spiritism—and to top it off, I spent 20 years in the US Army and 7 years as a police officer, with a college background of Nursing and Criminal Justice. For me, it all started as a curiosity of trying to figure out how the cards relates to other’s lives in such details, despite they are drawn randomly.

  How can it be possible that a deck of cards with peculiar designs can tell so much about a person’s ongoing situation as well shows a lot about their personality—like looking into a mirror?.
   
    Lots of people asked me, how can you see my life’s situation through the cards? I always tell them that Tarot is just a tool that helps taps on one’s intuition—in my case I used them as flash cards that trigger memories of my own life, which in turns, I reflected them on others, as a mirror. I noticed with years of practice that the cards no matter in what order of draw—change meaning depending from what angle you observed them. I can draw the same cards for different people and believe me; they all will come out with a different meaning related only to them.

    In my search to find out the mechanics of it, I could tell you something for certain—we all are energy and we all connected by life’s experiences, no matter what is your background, ethnicity, beliefs, geography or economical status. We are all energy beings, while living and collecting human experiences.

   Is Tarot like Magic? Witchcraft? Or more sinister from what it looks? I believe the answer is so simple that even in its simplicity, is hard to wraps as a fact.

    When I first started with the Tarot, I found it so complicated, time consuming studies, even thought it was a bunch of meaningless cards. However, my negative approach never stopped me from keep trying to understand it. One day, I just decided to toss away the Tarot books and see the card for what they are—a picture that can tell a thousand words. I use that concept, while using my perception of it as a mirror, when reading for others. The outcome of it was indeed beyond my rational understanding—I learned to embrace it for what it is—not for what others wanted it to be. I just love to help people see themselves and their situations from another angle, in this case Tarot cards and intuition. While searching their own answers, finding their own solutions and remind them to be aware that everything change once they acknowledge it, ALL because their amazing God given gift of Free Will.

   Since 2004, my evolution as Tarot reader have gone from reading at online Forums, Chat rooms, Emails, Phone calls to friends, even while radio hosting—then in the past 2 years, I moved on to perform in public through local fairs and Spiritualist Churches while in the Mid-West of USA. Now, I have been invited to bigger state events with 1,000+ people attendance. Since I publically embrace the Tarot for what it is—the door of opportunities to share my passion for Cartomancy have opened beyond my understanding. I see these opportunities as my way to help people to enhance their soul through positive reinforcement, while it helps my soul to evolve as well.

   Evolution will continue, no matter the detours, the challenges and the impossible… Evolution will never stop changing what we know—everything and everyone will continue evolving, while changing it into something more adaptable to its environment...

Love and Light for all of you..

Liz Figueroa

Sky Snowy Owl

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Opportunity come to those who wait!

How many times we heard the saying “Great things come to those who wait”? I bet, you heard it many times and still wondering why you are not getting those great things despite your sacrifices while waiting.

I have experienced these great things over and over and still when I face the same experience, I go through the whole repertoire of emotions. Always forgetting that in the past I went through similar experiences that always end up in happy endings.

For me, the great things came after facing two years of tears and desperation.

Since January 2011,

Who doesn’t kill you make you stronger.

     We go through a whole lifetime meeting people from all path of life as well places. Through that journey we keep some friends close while putting miles between those that no longer serve a purpose. I just turn 50 years old and while reminiscing about the people I have found in my path, I came to see that I don’t have many friends that I can trust or spend quality time with.

Most of my life I have been solo, never been the kind that follows the pack or identify with a specific group.

      I am more like a explorer, I like to try anything new or unknown, I like to go new places, meet new people, talk about any subject except politics and religion of course. However, there is something peculiar about people I have met. Like any other, I can say that I have met few drama queens from which I still wonder why they didn’t won an Oscar for their dramatic ways to face life, that still baffles me. On the other hand I have met the typical jerks, now—those should won the middle finger award, and that is been said in courteous ways, because on my book what they need is a severe kick in the butt for sure.

The drama queens and jerks have been around me most of my life but in the last 2 years, I have come to met the sociopath kind.

      Now, this sociopath kind is more likely the ones that you meet at work, you know this kind, is those that have no conscious, moral values or any remorse for their actions. Everything its about them and the rest can go to hell for what they care. I must said I have a hard time with this kind, since I just can’t figure out a human being lacking of compassion or not even think about consequence—”cause and effect”—through their life as well how they affect others.

     Since November 2011 to this present, I have met two sociopath, the first one

Cleaning from inside out

August 31, 2011
After having a couple of days of serious headaches and lack of energy for God knows why. I decided to balance my energy centers as usual, thinking that it will alleviated the unbalance. However, not only the headache remains, it also provoke an unusual dream of profound message.

Yes, when I thought I have my life figured out, dreams come around to let me know that I have more work to do.

My dream’s setting start in the inside of this empty house with crooked walls  with a look resembling the 1960s. Yes, some of the walls were uneven, some walls were made of concrete others of wood and some were just perfect. It was like walking into a house that needed inspection.

Out of no where, here comes this older man with a check list /board in his hands and right after him, there was 2 more men. The old man was telling the other two what walls to turn down to be rebuild again. I saw them slamming the crooked walls with sledge hammers, the sound was felt all over the house.

Suddenly, the walls became perfect and in bright yellow color, it happen so fast that I don’t recall see them painting the walls at all. I found myself in the living room of the house, where furniture started to appear as I direct my eyes in all directions. Among the odd things of the dream itself, I saw the fridge in the living room, a nice cozy couch with a nice African American couple dressing like in the 60s.

As I kept moving around, I saw a storage room what have shelves covered with glass full of food, and they were as long my eyes can see. Obviously, the house was ready to be self sufficient. As I turn, I saw the entrance of the kitchen but I didn’t go in, instead I direct myself to the stairs that was behind the couple in the couch.

I started to move upstairs but don’t recall my walk through it, just suddenly I found myself over a concrete roof.

On the roof, there were few baskets of clothes to be wash, I count as far 6 of them. I saw an open shack with clothes lines ready to be use and right in front of it, there was this old wringer washing machine. I saw 3 young men helping around and their clothes needed to be wash. I walked toward the baskets of clothes and was shock to found my mother among them.

I observed her how she moved around and felt her sense of dramatic urgency typical of her personality. She started to fill the old washing machine using a rusted metal can while taking water coming from a bamboo spout. I approached closer and the washing machine turned into an brick old well. Couldn’t understand why she kept filling the well non stop while talking about washing the clothes.

While observing this, I saw a couple that seems familiar somehow. They came with bags of sweets, gave me a hug and congratulated me for the new home. I told them “there still work to do and lots of laundry”. They smiled at me and said “In time, you will get it done, one day at the time”.

Don’t recall getting out of the house, but then saw myself inside a car with an old man driving and a young girl sitting in the passenger side. I was somehow sitting on the floor of the car with my right hand holding tight my left hand, right over my stomach. Then I woke up from this dream, still with my hands holding tight as I was in the car.

My dream interpretation:

When in dreams seeing ourselves inside houses, not necessary represents a home we live on, but an outlook of our own consciousness. To see an empty house in dreams, it’s the representation of feeling emotional empty or missing something or someone. Seeing the house in deterioration is typical of being sad or suffering depression. The fact that my eyes were attracted by the crooked walls, its showing me the randomness and chaos of the house or my inner self. Seeing walls in a house can also represents an obstacle or challenge as well separation from different parts of one’s life.

The sight of the sledge hammer is the will power through force and strength, capable to destroy and build. With the power of it while slamming down the walls, it’s a clear sign to me of ending a process or boundaries that were self inflected. Seeing everything rebuild and in yellow color is having a positive outlook of my being. Seeing food inside the house, is a representation of nourishment for the body, mind, emotions, soul, or spirit. Giving me the sense that no matter how tough life can be, I am well prepare to overcome what is ahead of me. Going upstairs, is a representation of moving forward in life, also can represents the passing among levels of consciousness, subconscious, spiritual, etc.

Being in the top of the roof is an indication of the last part of a house when its build as well something unattainable. It can also be seeing as a limitation on how high one can go or how much progress one can make. Seeing my mom on the roof, was quite a sore subject as we don’t speak each other in real life due to the pains and suffering she made me experience in my childhood. I don’t hate her, but somehow I keep those memories of her away from me, in order to not be hurt. Perhaps, this is why this section of the house that seems to be made out of wood, the roof is made out of concrete instead.

Seeing the baskets of dirty laundry is a representation of imperfection or mistakes, a fear of being judged, a disappointment, feeling less than perfect. The fact that my mom was present while looking at the basket of dirty clothes, reminded me of the times that she did everything to embarrassed me, judged me and always belittle me with the intention to make me feel less than her.

The sight of the old wringed washing machine is a representation of repairing, releasing, cleaning up, or reaching closure in some area of my life in order to feel finished/complete and then having a fresh start. Seeing my mom trying with urgency to clean the clothes was a sight that not only me wants to clear that area of my life with her, but she is also trying to clean the dirty past among us.

Seeing water in my dreams is obvious a representation of emotional feelings but seeing the water going into a old rusted metal can, is a sign of control or restraint either physical, mental or emotional. Perhaps is the restraint that my mother and I keep among each other, her refusing to accept her responsibility in her wrong doings towards me and me refusing to forgive and forget all the wrong done.

Observing the water coming out of the bamboo spout was a memory of my childhood while living in the hills of Puerto Rico. Seeing the water flowing can represent change, transformation or moving forward in my life.The entire dream was a set up of the 60s, years in which I born (1962) and they were my childhood forming years. To dream about the past is common, its an attempt by the subconscious to review, remember, explore deeper feelings about past events. It can also be view as a process of reconciling the past within oneself, not to exclude grieving, closure, forgiving and letting go of—reaching inner peace with it.

I now look at this dream and realized of what I asked God the night before.. I asked to be shown what else I need to do to move forward in life… obviously the cleaning process from inside out is a most and as I was told in my dream “In time, you will get it done, one day at the time”.


Love and Light Everyone!

A Rabbit in My Dream!

I haven’t written my dreams for a while but recently I got a distinct dream that I can’t get out of my head. I guess it was the surprise to see a huge rabbit in my dream alone with having my friend being part of the dream. 
  
      In this dream, my friend and I climbed up to this hill top, with the idea to hunt for rabbits. Once in the top, I stand in the left side of the path, right besides this huge tall green tree. My friend was standing on the right side of the path, facing a stone fence. I noticed that right at the base of this huge tree, there was a black hole/tunnel or rabbit hole, I stick my arm to dig into the hole but all I felt was the soft fur of an animal. Not sure of what I was doing, I yelled at my friend asking for a flash light. He replied “Just a minute, I am getting this rabbit out of here”. I saw him digging under the stone fence and then suddenly he pulled by the ears, this huge grey rabbit from the dirt and rocks. I woke up from this dream, wondering the meaning of such dream.

Taking in account my understanding and the various meanings I have found in the internet about the underlined symbols of my dream, here is what I think the dream is about:

Despite the tight relationship between my friend and I, we both have similar life paths and goals. At this moment, I am dealing with my spirituality or spiritual growth while fixing things at the unconscious levels. Being in the left side of the path and besides a tall green tree, to me it represents the receiving part or looking for instructions/learning. On the other hand, seeing my friend in the right side of the path, it give the impression of him “giving” all his attention in obtain his goals and desires.

For me seeing the rabbit hole and putting my hand through it, touching nothing but fur, it gave me a sense of fear of what I was touching and despite I got the sense of what it was, I was still asked for a flashlight. This to me represents the latent fear of the unknown and my constant habit to analyzed things before I am get into it.

When it comes to spirituality, you have to trust what you sense, otherwise you get stuck in the analyzing part of it.

My friend was digging into the dirt like his life depended on it, obviously his desire is to get himself out from the situation he is in and finding the rabbit shows a good omen of what is to come. I remembered, seeing him crying of happiness in having this huge rabbit in his hands and how carefully he clean the dirt and rocks from the animal while showing it to me.

Perhaps, this dream is an omen of things to come for both of us, perhaps a teaching lesson for me. Time will tell about our fate and I am grateful to have this dream, as I remembered asking spirit the night before, of what it will become of both of us in the future?

Dream Symbols Meanings:


Hill: To climb one indicates honor and distinction to come.

A hill might become an obstacle that you have to overcome in walking life. http://www.dreamsleep.net/dream-meaning-dictionary-hill.html

To dream of climbing up a hill or mountain and reaching the top, you will overcome the most formidable obstacles between you and a prosperous future; but if you should fail to reach the top, your dearest plans will suffer being wrecked. http://www.experiencefestival.com/a/Climbing/id/235106

Tree: Green trees foretell realized hopes and desires fulfilled.

A tree in a dream can symbolize spiritual growth, a reaching for the heavens, or it may represent a growth in maturity, or it may even be symbolic of growth in grounding one's self firmly in one's life. http://www.bellaonline.com/articles/art35707.asp

Stones: Many confusions and failures

To see stones in your dreams, foretells numberless perplexities and failures. To walk among rocks, or stones, omens that an un even and rough pathway will be yours for at least a while. Small stones or pebbles, implies that little worries and vexations will irritate you. http://www.dreamsmeaning.org/2010/01/stone.html

Walls: Facing obstacles or detours

Any type of walls in your dream indicate a formality and that you need to control yourself in some way. A stone wall represents some obstacle that you need to overcome in order to be successful. http://www.auntyflo.com/dream-dictionary/walls-and-fences

Hole: You will soon be facing a long journey

A hole in the ground symbolizes an obstacle that you must avoid to achieve success at something in real life. It can also mean that you feel someone is hiding things from you. Rabbit Hole: If you dreamed of seeing a rabbit hole in the ground, this symbolizes hidden aspects of your waking activities. http://www.myjellybean.com/dream-dictionary/dream-dictionary-hole-hot-tub/pdf

Tunnels: Worries to come
Tunnels: You're accessing or dealing with issues that exist in your subconscious mind. http://www.mydreamvisions.com/dreamdictionary/symbol/987/

Fur: Detonates prosperity and many varied interest.

A dream featuring fur represents prosperity and good luck in money matters. The dream may also be symbolic of your animalistic and instinctual nature. http://www.myjellybean.com/dream-dictionary/dream-dictionary-friends-future

Rabbit: Business gains and happiness in love and in family life.

To dream of rabbits, foretells favorable turns in conditions, and you will be more pleased with your gains than formerly. http://dreaminterpretationsguide.com/dreamdictionary/r/?action=results&poll_ident=4

Seeing a rabbit in your dream, foretells of luck, magic and of a favorable turn of events and a positive outlook in your future endeavors. Alternatively, rabbits symbolize your sexual activity. http://www.hyperdictionary.com/dream/rabbits

Dirt: Could represent your state of mind or a situation from your daily life.

It could symbolize a relationship, a business venture, or any other part of your life where you or someone else has been less than honest and honorable. Dreaming about soil and the earth usually symbolizes fertility and the potential to grow. Rich soil may be an indication that the time is right for work and new beginnings. http://www.experiencefestival.com/a/Meaning_of_Dreams_about_Dirt_Earth/id/241698

Love and Light Everyone!

Happy 49th Birthday To Me!

     Most women when reaching certain age, they stop celebrating their birthdays for any given reason. However, I can say I am the exception to the rule , because I have so many reasons for celebrating life itself no matter where my travels have taken me.

  I remember saying back in the days when I was 16 years old “I won’t make it to my 20th”. Gosh I was quite wrong on that one! .

  When I just turned 16, I skipped school with a friend, to go to another town to meet a “Healer/wise woman”. Who used automatic writing to tell messages from spirits. Among everything she said to me, there was one prophecy that I laughed when I heard it. She said “I see you wearing a uniform and carrying bags, you will travel more than anyone in your family. You will be in strange lands with strange people. Your life will change with your travels as well you will change others through your travels”  I  though that what she said was pure amusement and far from be a reality, however what she said that day, had stick with me most of my life.

Nether less to say, my life did a 360 beyond my comprehension months after her prediction.

Her prophecy have come true many times through my life. I have traveled to foreign  lands since my 17th Birthday. To add more to it, I joined the US Army four days before my 27th Birthday. Joining the military, took me to even more far land and be among strangers. I wore an Army uniform for 20 years of my life, carrying bags everywhere I went. I have being in half of Europe, Bosnia (1995-96 war), Japan (2 times), Kuwait / Iraq (2008-09) and USA (East/South/West/Mid-West).

With all those travels, I have always celebrated my birthdays away from my homeland and family, always in far land among strangers.

Today, is my 49th Birthday, I am in a new state, alone, unemployed and living in a transitional housing for Veterans for the time being. I can literally say that with this birthday (despite all the obstacles, life have thrown at me), I am celebrating more than another year in my life…..

         Yes, I am celebrating the freedom of being who I am today.


I will never be shame of my true age, making it to 49th I found it quite amusing and full of wonder of what is next, LOL I laugh about it, since there no reasons for tears—life is too short and I have made my mission to enjoy every minute of it, not as my last but as my first.

I believe the best gift I have today, its to be able to look back and see that God have always being in my travels no matter how far and dangerous they were. To see that those foreign lands and places, became my home for the time being. That my life changed with my travels for better or worst, as well I change other’s lives. That no matter how lonely I felt, they were always someone to remember me, hug me and say “Happy Birthday”.

Celebrating the freedom of who I am, is the best celebration of my life, no matter how painful it have being or many obstacles I have encounter through it. No matter how many times others have try to change me into their ways with no success, or have done me wrong--I have standing tall and fight my way to be me at all times.

All I can say to you when you birthday comes, don’t see it as another year passed by, or something to be shame for… celebrate it as a day that is yours, a day for joy, a day to be grateful for all the experiences in your life good or bad.. because what you have done in your life, shapes who you are today.

Happy 49th Birthday to me!

Love and Light Everyone!

Learning From Universe Through Others

     Since my journey through spiritual path as an adviser, I have encountered all types of people, with their difference in belief systems as well their life drama; all asking questions for which their answers in most cases is right in plain view. However, I have learn a valuable lesson from them, precisely after me given them advice…. that the message coming from Universal Consciousness, is not ONLY for them to know, but also for me to learn from as well.

It’s just amazed me, the vast amount of knowledge we can teach others from our own experiences, but more over when others teach us from the same lessons we teach them.

    While counseling a friend about taking action in certain decisions, she was wondering why she keep asking for good things to come into her life and see no results, despite being an avid follower of “The Secret” and “The Laws of Attractions”. I remember sensing the urge to tell her that “we all can ask God/Universe for things or events, but its not the question that matters, but how we ask the question itself”.

     Nether less to say, that at a certain points in our lives we all asked the wrong questions, specially when we become part of the vicious cycles of “Why” questions. Like “Why this happen to me?”, “Why I have done everything needed to be done and see no results?” “Why others have what I want and I do not have it?”. It’s like becoming a three year old child, that ask constantly questions starting with “Why” and no matter what is the response, another “Why” question it’s on it’s way.Once we become part of that cycle, its quite challenging to get out it for either the child or the adult.

As you see, a question starting with “Why” only promotes an explanation, but a question starting with “How” it promotes action.

     After helping my friend to get out of her “Why” cycle, I move on with my life as usual. I thought that Universe wanted me to teach her that lesson needed in her life and that was the end of it. Little that I knew, that as soon after I forgot all about it, I fall in the “Why” cycle myself. Yes, I let my emotions cloud my access to Universal Consciousness or messages coming from spirit by asking the wrong questions.

    The funny part from this story was when I was talking to the same friend weeks later, and I started rambling my  own “Why” cycle. She smiled at me and said “Remember what you told me about asking the right questions?” Wow, her questions became quite a surprise as Universe telling me, that spiritual lessons do not come for one person, but for many in the same vibration, state of mind or life experience.

It was quite obvious that in the same way we become teachers, we also become students.

     By just being reminded by my friend of that lesson, it made me to take a deep look into myself and realized what was going on. The moment I acknowledged the “Why” cycle  and I changed my questions starting with “How” instead; I noticed how Universe delivered synchronicities in the most amazing ways. I saw lots of choices and opportunities, instead of facing a brick wall while in the “Why” cycle.

All I can tell you is, when falling into asking the wrong questions, ask Universe questions starting with “How” and see the results. Be amazed, be enlighten and enjoy the moment
Love and Light Everyone!

Resentment While On Spiritual Path

“Resentment or grudges do no harm to the person against whom you hold these feelings but every day and every night of your life, they are eating at you”. ~~ Norman Vincent Peale

The definition of “Resentment” is the experience of a negative emotion (anger or hatred, for instance) felt as a result of a real or imagined wrong done. It seems to me that when we embark in seeking a spiritual path, is when most negative feelings comes to surface, forcing us to deal with it in one way or another.

It’s not how you go by it, but what you learn from it, consequently moving on with your life and away from such negative feeling.

Like many others, I have being victim of resentment coming from others, making me wonder if is perhaps my hard core honesty that hurt them or perhaps my rejection. Feeling the resentment from this specific individual makes me take a deep look of how I see myself through this situation. Am I a victim or am I the villain in this situation? Or perhaps both? This all relate to “action and reaction law” or “cause and effect” of a specific event.

Through my life experience, I have found that the most resentful people I have ever met happen to call themselves, “Light Workers” or “Spiritual people”. Yes, I am talking about those that scream through their heart that they only work with the light, or live the path of truth. Funny is that they only brought this up when they have been put in the spot or their true self have been questioning. Consciously or unconsciously they are hindering their own spiritual path as a consequence. Do I hate this type of individual? No, but I have to admit I feel resentful of being blame for “imagined wrong done” by this individual.

I have done and said things for the sake of people I have known, that in turn it back fired me when I was naïve or ignorant of their true psychological state.

I have come to the conclusion that being resentful is not for my highest good and neither for the highest good of who I feel resentment for. As we attract what we fear most, we also attract to ourselves what we resent in others and I no longer want to be part of it in any sense or form. I have learn that when I resent others for their actions towards me, it really stop my progress through spirituality. This is because I stop in what I was doing, to analyze the reasons, caused and effects of the event for too long. Finding that I waste precious time through it, when I could involve myself in more creative ways to enhance my soul and evolve. It’s no longer a matter of question of who is to blame for, but how I move on while forgiving those that I resent or receive resentment from. I acknowledge that in order to go forward in my soul evolution, I have to let go of resentment for good.

Trust me; this is not an easy task at all, but a constant work. However, I am not going to stop in better myself while purging these feelings, because my aim is to evolve as a soul. Things do happen for a reason and there is a lot to learn from the feeling of resentment and how we feel from those that are resentful toward us.

Love and Light Everyone!

“Nothing on Earth consumes a man more quickly that the passion of resentment”. ~ Friedrich Nietzsche

Pendulum Board

      The skill of “Dowsing” have run in my family for generations. I still remember my grandfather Julio, when he took a tree branch in “Y” shape and search for water lines along the field he was working on. 

He was so good at it, people used to come from anywhere in the island, to hire him to search water lines.

Since 2007, I came across the need to use dowsing for answers and instead of using the old methods of my grandpa, I opted for the pendulum. I have study the mechanics of this tool and through trial and error, I can say I managed to make it work for me. I have to say that I am not fan of “Pendulum charts” at all. However, recently I stumbled with this pendulum board as its shown on the picture above and I am very impress with its performance.

The craftsmanship and positive energy from this board, its outstanding indeed. My pendulums started to work with it immediately, compared with charts I used in the past.  I usually don’t give reviews about items I buy online but when I do, I give credit where credit is deserved.

While using this board today, I asked few questions of importance to me. I can’t tell you the details of it, but I will tell you briefly about it.

I  asked about how long I will stay where I am right now and the answer was two months. So far, I have being here twelve days so time will tell. I asked about a job interview coming up and the answer is “yes” in being hire, so I will keep an eye open on that one. I asked of when I will meet the man that I will marry 3 years from now. I not only got the month, day, physical attributes of him,  but also the full name of this person ( CMO initials). This suppose to happen sometime in May of this year, so we will see.

I asked for an ongoing relationship at this moment and it points out about five months duration for it. It’s already two months of it, so time will tell. I must say, I am very impressed with the answers but more with the attitude of my pendulums with this board. I was so attracted to it, I got to buy it and I am glad I did. Below I will post a video of the creator of this board, hope you enjoy this item as much as I do.

Pendulum Board by Rev. Rose


You can also find her board at the Etsy.com store, here. 

I will keep an eye on the predictions given by this board using my pendulums, so stay tune more to come..

Love and Light Everyone!.

2010…And You Thought It’s Over?

   Rambling about 2010 and what is to come in 2011…
Gosh, this year 2010 was quite a year indeed, from beginning to end! So many hard lessons as well so many tears.

This is my 2010’s review:

First, January/February 2010 started with spiritual discoveries.. new energies. It was a time of joy and deep understanding of everything I encountered with, through 2009.

March 2010, I learn about the damages that earthbound spirits can do, specially when it relate to immature people. Consequently, it caused for me to end a friendship that no longer was enhancing my soul. It was indeed a time for me to wit out who is no longer working in the light……because for them, it was more fun to work in the DRAMA of it, than finding an understanding through it. I am grateful of this happened, because through it, I found my own healing light. Consequently, I walked away from other people’s drama and for it, I am so glad that for once, I paid attention to spirit on this matter.

April 2010, tragedy stroke my life in so many levels. At the beginning of this month, I was involve in a car accident from which the lost  of a life came as a result of it.  Despite I survived it, I faced not only the physical pain from it,  but the most outrage anger and injustice of others towards me.  I have lived dark times in my lifetime, but this event indeed was the top of it, as the worst…..because this event took me to consider suicide.

I looked back to those days, and I feel deep shame, that someone like me that used to be so full of life and loving life, I almost end my own for the pain I was living. All I can say, I am glad I didn’t, because it would be a terrible waste indeed…

It was during this time, that I found who was the real friends…

For months, I wondered…. why I didn’t die during that tragic car accident?  Why I was spare to face this hell around me?. It took a while for me to make peace with it, but the most hardest part, was for me to find peace within me. I am Thankful that during this time, I found myself through spirituality, that gave me the strength to keep on living. I know, God spared me because he has greatest plans with me and that keeps me going, to see what is next in my life.

May 2010, when thought that everything will be ok, everything turn wrong around me. My husband was forced to face the reality of today’s economy, almost forcing him to close his restaurant after 45 years in business. This not only affected me but the whole family. Despite that, he tried his best to keep it going the best he could, up to the final closing day in later months.

August 2010, going through the stress to almost loosing my job. These were days  in which everything that happened since April, resulted in suffering of a deep depression. It made me to drop on my knees and asked again for God to help me, because I needed intervention. I must said that helped did came, didn’t loose my job and neither my income, but in the process I became victim of much injustice and conspiracies… I know this will pass somehow…someday..

As months passed, facing to loose everything came upon me..

October 2010, I came to terms of letting go of everything that reminded me pain. I was looking at everything I have accumulated since 1993 and decided to get rid of it for good. I cried through this entire cleansing, because it opened so many past wounds. On this month, I gave away all the furniture I purchased and brought with me from Germany, because it reminded me of ex-husband. A man that managed to almost destroy me emotionally.

I got rid off of the things I acquired from all the countries I have visited, I just saw it as lifeless things that no longer keep their splendor. I found letters from ex-hubby…. its amazing that the letters starting very loving the first years and full of hate at the end of the marriage. As I read a couple of them, I took a deep breath and realized that is a life experience done and gone, as I exhale… I felt the release of letting go of that part of me.

Though this cleansing, I went through my closet and saw all the clothes that I no longer use, due to no longer fit me but I keep thinking that one day they will… alone with it, I found my military uniforms from 20 years back to present. I was glad to put everything in plastic bags and tossed it on the streets for the garbage man. I didn’t have the heart to give away those clothes to others, thinking that who ever get it, will have my misfortune as well….the garbage man came later on with his family and loaded all the bags in his car…hope nothing but happiness for them.

November 2010, Time to face reality…. This have become a month in which forced me to take a deep look at my job. It’s obvious that I won’t be able to keep my old job, due too much pain and emotional stress. It’s time to move on and perhaps try something new that doesn’t require to use an uniform or better yet, relocate away from the entire state.

December 2010, facing the ultimate in letting go of what no longer works in my life……marriage. We both have hold tight to the relationship despite we know deep inside is not working for both of us.

 Little by little and day by day, we let go of each other as we go..

However, its time to let go in separate ways and face life alone. I don’t know if he is ready for it, but I know I am. I realized that I can’t hold tight to someone that have to find himself and refuse to do so. I can’t keep going living someone's karma alone with mine.

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I look at all I have being through in 2010 and believe me, it takes guts to share a part of my life with anyone that might stumble on this blog. The way I look at it.. we ALL mirrors of each other. Some of you might have live this already, some of you are glad that haven’t live this at all, or perhaps like me… some of you may wonder what is next.. I only hope that you understand that despite all the bad things we go through life, we have to keep on living…because not everything is bad.. there are moments of joy worth living for..

2010, was a year of lessons, trials, tears, self-discovery, physical losses and letting go of what no longer worked in my life...but above all, in this year I have learn forgiveness in all levels. Sometimes we have to forgive the events that happen in our lives, as well forgive ourselves for the feelings and actions we put through those events.

I know its not over….

2011, will be a year of challenges, survival, triumphs and more let go of what is not enhancing my soul.. but sure I know, it will be a lot better than 2010 and that alone, keeps me going to see what is next.. 

Love and Light Everyone!

Messages to Myself

It never stops amazing me, how much we relay in technology nowadays. We have cell phones, IPods, computers and all kind of gadgets to do almost anything. Its like, if there is something we want to do; we always find a gadget or an application to make it happen.

       I sure wish there was one of those applications, when I lost my cell phone the other days. Yes, like an application in which you can click a button and tells you where is at or deactivate it, before it ended up in the wrong hands. I am sure, is there such application or gadget to help find your other gadgets, it will come handy some how.

In my case, I lost my cell phone for 2 days, so my search started in the first place I saw it last, my purse. I empty that sucker out and no sign of the phone. Then, I went to both of our cars and no sign of my cell phone. The search started to be more in tune and aggressive, when after searching in the most common places was not good enough.

I started room-by-room, checking laundry, washer and dryer, yes--even the cat’s littler box—as I said, sometimes you can find what you looking for in the most odd places. LOL

No sign of the cell phone, and as a last resort, I seek my pendulum for answers. I figured, if dowsing is good for finding water and mineral, it should be good to find my darn cell phone as well. In my desperation and watching this pendulum swinging in every direction except for the one I was looking for, I was getting quite agitated and edgy.

However, the pendulum not being enough help, I started the search again, in the same places while sweating my butt off and getting quite angry about it. I tried to calm down, because I knew that in the state of mind I was, I was not bound to get results. So what I did? I call my own phone and to my back luck, it kept going to voice mail. This alone, was not good since it made my mind to go wonder in where this phone might be. Of course, I started thinking the worst..

I start to take deep breaths of air and as I try my best to calm down, I continue calling my cell phone fewer times more. I started to leave messages into it, with the hope someone will pick up. I thought to myself, “God, this is so insane, please help me to calm down, there is no use for me to loose my peace over this electronic gadget”.

       So after leaving few messages in my cell phone’s voice mail, I sat and watch TV for a while, when I saw this woman searching her purse for a piece of paper that she found it, her purse’s pocket. A light bulb, turn on in my head and I looked for the same purse I searched early, and there is was my cell phone, in one of the front pockets. I just sat down with it and started to mentally recalling all the search and rescue maneuvers I did early all around the house and outside for this darn piece of electronic hell. I Thank God, and the woman on the TV, for showing me the way; believe me--it was quite an experience.

About 2 days passed, I pick up my cell phone to get out of the door, when I noticed an arranged of voice mails in my cell phone. It was a mixture of friends’ messages alone with the messages I left in my cell phone while searching for it. As I dial to hear the messages, I was shock of hearing my own voice…

First, was my sweet voice saying “Hello…. Please pick up!” Then my voice started to be more intense, like “Helloooooooooooooooooooo, where in the hell are you!” Later on, my voice was more agitated like “Hello, who ever have my phone, it better return it, or else!” Finally, I heard my voice of anger and despair, saying “Listen, you sorry thug, if you have my phone, I am going to track you down and when I find you, I am going to kick your ass… your heard me!.. I will kick your ass!... After hearing this in my own voice, I was scare of my own shadow for sure, wondering if my other me, will come and kick my ass for real…

I sure laughed about the whole deal but then I thought; Thanks God that the phone did not ended up in someone’s hands, I will feel sorry for who ever heard those messages, LOL

I have learn valuable lessons from this event; Yeap, never allow an electronic gadget to turn you in something that you usually are not, and above all… never leave threaten messages to your self in your own cell phone.

Spirit Talks or Mediumship with Tarot & Konxari Cards!

       After reading a Facebook post by my Tarot friend Donnaleigh de LaRose, I felt curiousity into deal with these cards personally. Recently, I purchased them and at first, I didn't think anything extraordinary when I saw them, due to their small size compared to common Tarot cards, but the beautiful creative photographs into it, makes these cards one of the kind.

In my opinion, these cards should not be taken as a toy as many used the infamous Quija Board in past years. I believe like with any divination tool, it requires knowledge of how to protect itself from spiritual energies. As well as it opens a door, it's important to know how to close it. Spirit messages can be manifest in so many ways that it can make the most skeptic become a believer and Konxari cards are good example of it as well is Tarot cards when it comes as tools of divination. Konxari cards are indeed great tool for paranormal investigations. Read my experience below the video clip.



       

My personal experience:

When using these cards, my intention was not to communicate with anyone in specific, but to look into a problem/solution matter. After grounding and spiritually protect myself before using these cards. I shuffled the cards and placed them upside down, skipping the cards require by the little manual that came with these cards. I was shock to see that the cards pointed out an incoming situation within my job place. Looking at them at first by sequence, it didn't make too much sense to me, so I used a pendulum to find the real sequence of it. The message changed after changing the sequence into the following cards: Door, Legend, Night, Other worldly, Hatred, Underground, Movement, Angel, and Life.

By looking at it, I saw that everything is relate with something to come starting in the second week of August. This is what I understood in the cards; that when I will return back to my work after a long absent(Door). I will be facing a person who is trying to forbidden me to reenter in my job place (Legend). I know that I will face people hiding in the shadows during this time frame full of speculations and opinion (Night, Other worldly, Hatred). The last three cards is showing me a solution of the problem as unknown forces moving underground (Underground, Movement) with the relief of seeing an Angel card intercepting through this period and showing me the rest of my life as an opportunity to keep moving (Angel, Life).

At this point this is ALL what I understood from it, but this time its to come soon and it's up to show me the truth of this message as it develops. It's curious to see, that among the letters of each card, it's pointing out three letter of a week day (TUE), which is a Tuesday in where is my final doctor's appointment and possibly I will be release back to work (August 10th). It also shows a date as September 8th, perhaps as final outcome of the problem. I am just going to seat and see how this message from these cards develops and how accurate it will be. I will update this post as it happens, so stay tune..


To read more about these type of cards, you can see the Konxari website at:
www.konxari.com

Just remember this...... this is not a toy or party favor of any sort

Meditation Experience: DNA Changing?

       Last night I have a very interesting experience. I went to bed to balance myself and my hands started to heat up tremendously while close to my chakras. I felt the urge to place my hands in each chakra and I noticed the flow of energy of each of my chakras.


It was wild indeed, but for some reason the most powerful vortex from those chakras was coming from my solar plexus taking all my waist line as well my crown chakra covering my entire head. As the minutes pass, my entire body was vibrating at high speed, making me short of breath at times.

I have no idea of what all this is about, but when I asked spirit, I was told about DNA changing at cellular level. Have you experience this before? It's my first and wonder now.. :)


Love and Light Everyone!

Cosmic Events: Have Changed How I See Things Now

       I have always heard of people feeling sensitive with Cosmic Events and swear by that something have been happen to them, while experiencing such. I thought they were full of it, until I started to have my share of sensitivity and experiences with it.

Right now, I not only feel the vibrations of such events, but also the Earth vibrations, here and there as well. I guessed as we getting close to the planet alignment in 2012, its more likely, that I got affected by it, as well many others.

It’s the time of awakening indeed, but how we awaken to it, it’s what makes it a wild ride!

Let’s take for example June 26th, 2010, in which we experienced a Lunar Eclipse. I got weird dreams and felt an uneasy feeling all day long, without being able to put a finger on what was going on with my body. My reaction to it, was to meditate and balance constantly, the day before, during and the 3 days after.

Little I knew this Cosmic Event became like a mirror, in which I saw myself as I was and I didn’t like what I saw. I was too depressed after a tragic car accident and my energy was quite everywhere. I knew that I need it balance ASAP! as I felt the urge to get rid of what no longer resonates with me. Here I was looking at the mirror and wondering, what I want to change in me? what is holding me back from be who I need to be?

I reflected about past, present, future, family, work, and friendships and made a list of what needed to be change and to get rid off of what ever resisted change. Yes, I was on a “Cleansing” mode, from inside out and all around me. I knew that in cosmic events, there are high and low vibrations at personal and social levels. It was a choice in which I have to pick, on what vibration I wanted to be at. Honestly, to be at the low vibration, was not even in my agenda or desire. I changed outlook in many things, and I got rid of friendships that wanted to continue feeding fear with their life drama. In the process of “Cleansing”, I lost friends, I made enemies and gain more friends LOL but above all, I gain control of my life, as I wanted to do long time ago. Step by step, as I let go of the cluster that didn’t resonate with me anymore and changed within, I started to felt lighter, balanced and finally understood many things that were cover from sight.

Yes, it’s funny how life turns around on us, in which we have to face darkness, in order to find the light.

As I went alone, I saw peculiar changes around me, either relate with me or others. For example, the Solar Eclipse on July 11th, 2010, a day to remember in many social circles, since as the day came and left, there were clashes of Egos among members of any group all around us. Out of those circles, I saw long time friends and colleges got offended by a word said the wrong way, although not intentional. I will remember this Cosmic Event, because it was a time, in which everyone showed their true self among others. Yes, what it was up now is down… Ouch!

Another example is July 15, 2010 in which the Cosmos was focusing in Virgo, as Astrologers claimed. I don’t know what the heck happened to me that day, but it was like I stood up from the recliner like pushed from a spring loaded seat and I started to turn up side down the house with an energy coming from nowhere. I was organizing, cleaning closets, cleaning everything that needed to be clean and took a lot of things out of the house, straight in to the garbage. I thought it might be the over doze of Coke Cola, from which it doesn’t give that result at all in other occasions. However, I find out with other friends, that they also experienced quite the same during that day. Knowing that I was not alone, it was quite a relief, because I thought for a moment that I was going insane. LOL

After the event of July 15th, everything seems to be quiet, nothing is going on as far emotions within or around me, and it’s too calm and quiet to be comfort with. I have noticed the missing of time frames, as well body changes at cellular level. It’s like something big is coming on, but can quite put a finger of what it can be. After all the changes the Cosmic Events have done on me lately, I am quite concern with the ones to come on August 4th-5th, 2010. This day is expected by many as a rare planet alignment, I only hope that is for the better since I have more things to change, more friends to get rid off and more house to clean. LOL

I just wonder what changes the Cosmos Events have brought to you; you will be amaze that you are not alone!

Love and Light Everyone!

Tough Love: When Expectation Meets Reality

      Sometimes we have the expectation that in order to become spiritual; we have to take abuse or misunderstanding from those that are no longer in our vibration state. This type of spirituality or expectation would be suitable of the life of Jesus and some might say that we have to be like Jesus of the Bible, which there is nothing wrong by being like him, since is a choice. However, sometimes we have to cut ties with friends, as Jesus did in the desert with Satan, in which we have to show some tough love to those that no longer are in our resonation for them to realize the lack of it.

     I have seeing in few spiritual groups the drama that has taken place lately, due to the expectation of members in what should be a “spiritual person” or a “Worker of light”. It is like seeing the Bible story about Jesus in the Temple, being play itself repeatedly, in which he is confront with the judgment of religious figures while in the Temple. If I recall that story well, the so call high religious figures, masters of knowing the word of God, no only question him being the Son of God, but also questioning what is spiritual in him. I am sure that you have seen the same pattern of behavior of heighten Ego among these religious figures in any spiritual or like minds group you belong to in nowadays.

     Yes, there different personalities and vibration state among the members of a group or businesses while we all deal with them in our daily life whether we like it or not. We all face heighten Egos who dares to questioning our connection with God as well being judge as non spiritual, once we dissociated with anyone that we don’t resonate with any more, like Jesus did with Satan in the desert.

Seeing this entire drama that has taking place in the past days, and from which I have become subject of judgment by others that claim to be more spiritual than me, now I started wondering.  Should I took the abuse and judgment as Jesus did in the Temple because I should be a loving person or refused anything Satan said and offered in the desert in order to keep myself as Holy as God made me. As you see, in either way situation, Jesus won over judgment and temptation, because he made a choice. We all learn through our lives to respect the choices, Jesus made through the Bible, why is so difficult to respect the choices of others around you?

We go through life expecting a lot from people and sadly, it comes the time in which we have to face reality. Consequently, we have to show some tough love to those that we love,  as well those that are our friends and family, in order to keep ourselves as whole. Remember, is a choice.

I made a choice of not take any abuse from anyone in any form, as well disassociated with those I no longer resonate with, that is my choice. Am I less loving because of my choice? Am I less or non-spiritual comparing with you, because of my choice? Am I plagued with entities or negativity because of my choice? For those that dares to judged me, please tell me, Am I?

The whole deal, made me wonder, if anyone has a clear view of what Love and Spirituality is about. Personally, I do not think neither of us have a clear view, because in our human condition we tend to see things, as it should be instead. More over, when our Ego is on the way, we do not agree with what we see, we tend to change it into our like and swear by that is as what we say it is. Although I have an idea of what Love is, I frankly do not know what spirituality is, but I take the daily challenge to figure it out as I go in my path and I try harder everyday to see it as what it is, instead of what it should be, but that is my choice as well.

With this post, I am not angry with anyone, why should I be? we all have choices and it should be respect it as what it is. I am just reflecting in the past in order to go forward into my future and hope that if you are in similar situation, you will be able to do the right choice and move on with your life. Remember, tough love can be a win/win situation like in Jesus case. So make your choice and continue living, there is more life ahead as well more experiences full of lessons.

Love and Light Everyone! :)