Loosing connection

Note to Spirit: Spirit, I don't know whether is my lifestyle, my job or merely stop paying attention around me, but I think I am loosing connection. I know that spiritual experiences can not be constantly, that type of vibration I don't think any human being can be able to stand. However, since the lack of it compare to other times, it made me concern......am I loosing connection here? Spirit, are you still around watching over me? I am facing real cruel times, I am getting deploy, I really hope you stick around and let me feel and see you more often to improve my confidence. I really miss you, spirit.